Why am I stupid???
The story
Man, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I swear, I try so hard, I put in the hours, I do the work, but somehow it’s never enough. I thought I was smart, or at least average, but ever since I started my engineering studies, it’s like I’m constantly the dumbest guy in the room. I sit in class, listen to the professor explain something, and literally nothing clicks. Then I look around and see everyone nodding like they get it, asking these super technical questions that I don’t even understand enough to know what they’re talking about. I go home, rewatch the lectures, read the textbook, even look up YouTube videos that break it down in a way a 5-year-old could understand. Still nothing. It’s like my brain just refuses to process anything beyond basic math and physics. And don’t even get me started on exams. I walk in hoping for at least a decent grade, and every time, it’s like my mind goes blank. Half the questions look like they were written in another language, and even when I think I know the answer, I second guess myself so much that I end up changing it to the wrong one. I see other people finishing early, walking out looking all confident, and I’m still sitting there, staring at my paper like it’s gonna start answering itself. I try telling myself I just need to study harder, but I do study. Hours and hours, every single day. So if I’m putting in the effort and still failing, then... why am I stupid?
It’s not even like I’m lazy. I’ve seen people who barely study, who just skim through the materiall the night before and somehow pull off good grades. Meanwhile, I’m grinding like my life depends on it, and I still barely scrape by. My friends try to be nice about it. They say stuff like, "Bro, engineering is just hard for everyone, you’ll get there," but then they turn around and ace every assignment while I’m still stuck on step one. I don’t wanna be the guy who holds the group project back, but I can feel it happening. The way they explain things to me, the way they “help” but end up just doing the work themselves because I’m taking too long. It’s humiliating. I used to think I was good at problem-solving, but now every problem just feels like a dead end. I see my classmates who are actually passionate about this stuff, who spend their free time building things, programming just for fun, and I can’t relate at all. I don’t enjoy this. It’s just constant stress, constant failure, and I don’t even know why I’m still here. If I’m struggling this much now, how the hell am I supposed to survive the next few years? And then after that, actually work as an engineer? No company’s gonna wanna hire the guy who barely made it through college.
I keep wonderingg if I should just quit. Maybe this isn’t for me. Maybe I’m just not smart enough to do this kind of work, and I should accept that before I waste even more time and money. But then what? It’s not like I have some other passion waiting for me. Engineering was supposed to be the plan, the safe choice, the thing that would guarantee a good job. If I walk away from this, then what do I even do? My parents would be disappointed, I’d have to start over with something new, and I have no clue what that would even be. I don’t wanna be a dropout. I don’t wanna be a failure. But I also don’t wanna keep feeling like this, like I’m just too dumb to be here. I keep hoping one day it’ll just “click,” that suddenly things will start making sense, but I’m starting to think that’s never gonna happen. Maybe some people are just not meant for this kind of stuff, and I’m one of them. And honestly, if that’s true, then I don’t know what I’m supposed to do next...

Stories in the same category
Points of view
Hey there, I gotta say—you’re totally off track with this one. Engineering is tough, but seriously, it’s not some impossible mission. It’s all about mindset, man.
Yeah, it’s a grind, but remember that saying, 'Rome wasn’t built in a day.' You gotta give yourself a break and not beat yourself up. I remember struggling with circuits back in the day, but I kept at it, and suddenly—the light bulb went off, you know?
Finding balance and not comparing yourself to others is key. You’ve got this. Hang in there—it’ll click before you know it. Keep pushing, dude—you’re smarter than you think.
It seems like you're facing an uphill battle, but let's keep it real—engineering isn't easy. 😅 Not everyone finds it straightforward, but that doesn’t mean you lack intelligence. 🤔 Sounds like you're putting in the effort, which is commendable. Studying smart can sometimes outweigh studying hard. Ever tried switching up your methods or maybe asking for guidance? 😉
Quitting prematurely might not be the solution—every field has its challenges. Remember, success isn’t always linear. Take a breath, assess your options, and choose your path wisely. ✌️
maybe you're being a bit harsh on yourself: engineering is a tough nut to crack sure but it's not impossible!!! i get the feeling: you might be overthinking a bit... "analysis paralysis" is real isn't it??? many students struggle with concepts like thermodynamics and calculus at first!! maybe instead of focusing on being the "dumbest guy in the room" you could think about how to tackle the material differently? :-) i've heard people say "it's not about working harder but working smarter" have you tried that approach??? might be worth a shot.. good luck!!!