i cant do this anymore. im so tired

it's such a heavy burden to carry, feeling like you're responsible for the world around you; but taking on so much isn't fair to you. it's clear you've given so much love and support to those who needed it most -- don't discount that. maybe try shifting your focus inward, nurturing yourself with the same compassion you showed riley and others. remember, pain is inevitable but suffering is optional; finding a good therapist or counselor could help some peace creep back into your life.

man, talk about a rough ride through life's rollercoaster 😞 first off, i'm sorry you're dealing with so much; it sounds like you've been thrown one curveball after another. but honestly, how the hell is anyone supposed to hold everything together with all that weight on their shoulders? "The measure of intelligence is the ability to change" and you’ve managed to adapt in ways most people can't even fathom. living through those losses and still trying to make life work makes you stronger than you think or feel right now. have you ever considered what Riley would want for you if she could give advice from beyond? kind of dark but maybe it helps frame things differently; because honestly, blaming yourself isn't fair when no single person can control everything around them. keep holding on, even if it's by your fingertips—you're doing more than enough;

Given the immense challenges you've faced, it's understandable to feel overwhelmed and question your sense of adequacy. However, from what you've shared, it seems you have displayed an exceptional level of empathy and resilience throughout these experiences; such qualities are rare and valuable. While it's natural to dwell on feelings of responsibility, particularly following such tragic events, it may be beneficial to consider how influence is limited by external circumstances beyond your control. Do you believe that engaging in activities that honor Riley’s passions—like boxing or something similar—might provide a sense of connection or solace?

Is it truly fair to place the blame of another's demise squarely on your own shoulders when it's evident that external factors, outside of your control, play a formidable role in the unfolding of such tragic events?

Your narrative is profoundly poignant, and it's clear you've borne the weight of immense loss and heartbreak throughout your life. ❤️ You've shown incredible resilience and strength by navigating through such challenging circumstances, nurturing and guiding those around you, even when faced with overwhelming adversity. It's understandable that you're left feeling depleted after giving so much of yourself to others, yet still dealing with feelings of inadequacy.

It's important to recognize that your efforts were monumental, despite the tragic outcomes beyond your control. Life can be unpredictable, and although we can do our utmost to protect those we care for, sometimes factors are outside our realm of influence. Maybe consider seeking support from a therapist or counselor who can help you process these emotions and assist in finding a path toward healing.

Remember, every action you've taken was out of love and compassion—a testament to the deep bond you shared with Riley and others you've lost. Moving forward doesn't mean forgetting them; it's about finding ways to honor their memory while taking care of yourself too. You are more than enough, just as you are. 🌹

it’s heartbreaking to see how much weight you’re carrying from such a young age, and it’s absolutely unfair; you’ve been thrust into roles that are soul-crushingly demanding. i'm genuinely amazed by your resilience, but it's clear you're exhausted, and that's completely understandable. "we can't direct the wind, but we can adjust the sails"—maybe finding small ways to regain control could help; areas where you can make gentle changes for yourself without feeling like you have to fix everything around you. remember, even in chaos, small beacons of hope shine through when least expected💔

yo, your story's got a whirlwind of emotions and experiences that most folks wouldn't endure in a lifetime, let alone by 21. but i gotta say, putting all that blame on yourself? that's hardly fair or even accurate; life throws the harshest lessons sometimes and we can't control everything. my mom always used to tell me "you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink," right? you've done more than many would in your shoes; maybe try honoring their memory by taking care of yourself for once—it ain't selfish; it's survival. keep hanging in there 💪

Damn, sounds like you've been through hell and back—twice. Life's really got a twisted way of testing the strongest among us, huh? 🚲 Losing someone like Riley is gut-wrenching, especially when you poured so much love and effort into keeping her safe in your own way. It feels cruelly ironic that the people who give everything often end up feeling they've lost it all. But think about this: even though life blindsided you with reality-checks from left field, you were there for her and gave her moments she cherished. Maybe find a small part of each day to do something you both loved—it might be a boxing match on TV or just chilling somewhere peaceful—and keep her spirit alive with those memories…

what a heartbreaking situation you've been through... i can't even imagine the pain you're feeling right now 😣 it's completely understandable to feel like you're carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders. it sounds like you did everything you could for riley, and it’s clear that your presence made a huge impact on her life. sometimes life throws curveballs we can’t dodge, no matter how hard we try, and it doesn’t make us any less valuable. when tough times hit me, i found that reflecting on what makes me truly happy helped shift my perspective... maybe rediscover an old passion or find something new that brings peace? be gentle with yourself—you're doing better than you think, even if it doesn't feel like it right now 🤍

hey, i get you're feeling super overwhelmed with everything that's been thrown your way, it’s like life just keeps piling on and never gives you a break. i've lost people close to me too, feels like you're walking through quicksand sometimes. but honestly, you did so much for riley and everyone around you; can't control everything even if you try your hardest. maybe it's time to cut yourself some slack and remember that no one's perfect at handling all this stuff. life's messy, and being kind to yourself is a big part of getting through it. reach out for support if you need, even small steps help in moving forward.

your story is gut-wrenching, and it's honestly no wonder you're feeling so drained; the sheer volume of loss and responsibility you’ve faced would crush anyone. you tried your best to be a guardian for riley, and while things ended so tragically, it's not something you could control entirely. facing such adversity often prompts introspection about what we value most; maybe exploring activities that align with your interests and passions might provide a new sense of purpose—it's not about replacing memories but creating new ones that honor what you've shared; 💔

man, that's a heavy load you've been carrying 😔 sounds like you gave everything to keep things going for others but remember not everything's on your shoulders; life’s chaotic and unpredictable—sometimes way beyond our control. hey, with all that boxing practice y’all did, does getting back into it or some other activity help take your mind off things even just a bit? i bet Riley would want you to find some peace and look after yourself too; you're doing way more than most would in your situation!!!

hey, first off, i'm really sorry for everything you've been through—it's a lot more than anyone should have to handle. sometimes life feels like this crazy rollercoaster and just when you think you're on stable ground, everything flips upside down again. ever thought about writing it down or maybe talking through each memory? not to dwell on the pain but kinda giving yourself space to feel what you haven't yet; it's therapeutic. my cousin went through something similar and found solace in journaling—it became her personal space where she embraced both the joy and the chaos without judgment. just remember that even though things seem dark now, there's still light; you are never alone in these tunnels and reaching out shows how strong you truly are!!! 🌟

It's tough, but I gotta say, blaming yourself for everything is not the way to go. 🤔 You did more than most people would have in trying to help Riley navigate her world. But why didn't anyone else step up? It's like you're being too hard on yourself for stuff that's beyond your control. Instead of getting stuck on what you couldn't change, maybe think about what small steps you can take now to create a better situation for yourself. What about focusing on something new that sparks joy or helps ground you amidst all this chaos?

i get that you're feeling overwhelmed by everything that's happened, but blaming yourself won't change the past; it's clear you gave riley all the love and support you could, but some things are just beyond our control.

Honestly, you've been juggling so many nightmares and it's clear you've been the rock for everyone despite feeling like crumbling; remember that your worth isn't tied to preventing all bad outcomes because you're not some omnipotent being.

That's an incredibly tough experience you're navigating; it seems like life keeps dealing you harsh cards time and again, doesn't it??? 😞 I understand the feeling of constantly having to prove yourself and still feeling like it's not enough. Sometimes we focus so much on what we couldn't control or change, but it's important to acknowledge all the effort you put in; you've been a rock for many people, even when things didn't turn out as hoped. Personally, I find that in situations where I'm overwhelmed by loss and guilt, practicing mindfulness or meditation helps ground me in the present moment instead of being trapped in a cycle of regret or despair. Perhaps seeking small moments of calmness can offer a bit of respite amidst the chaos? Even minor shifts can sometimes bring unexpected clarity;

Damn, that's a wild ride you're on, and it's crazy to think you've had to bear so much at such a young age. Look, I get that feeling of not being enough—it's like a constant shadow that's hard to shake off—but let's be real here: no one can control everything, and expecting yourself to do that is just setting up for more heartache. You might've been there for Riley in ways no one else could've been; that kind of love is unforgettable. But can't you see? Life's chaotic circus doesn't just need taming—it needs understanding that sometimes things fall apart despite our best efforts. How about finding small moments each day where you feel good or at least remotely okay? Those moments can add up over time and maybe provide some relief amidst the madness.

can we just be real for a sec? thinking you're not enough is total BS, it's like you're holding yourself to some impossible standard 🧐. people make their own choices, and you can't control what others do or don't do; riley's decisions were her own, no matter how much love and guidance you gave. seems like you're bearing the weight of the world alone, but maybe it's time to let go of carrying everyone else's burdens—focus on you for a change because you deserve way more than this guilt trip you're giving yourself 💁‍♂️.

first off, just wanna say i'm sorry you're going through all this 😔 you've been incredibly strong and have given so much of yourself to the people around you. maybe it's time to focus on small things that bring some light back into your life. even if it's just for a moment, engaging in something like meditation or art might give you some relief from the chaos 🤔 consider taking baby steps towards activities that make you feel alive again; it won't erase the past but could offer you some comfort. remember, it's absolutely okay to lean on others—you don’t have to carry this weight alone! 🌟

yo, that's an unbelievably tough ride you've been on 😢 navigating life with the weight of loss and betrayal is more than anyone should endure; it's like you're captain of a ship in stormy seas without seeing land. but remember, even heroes need support—lean into your community or find new connections that can share some lighter moments with you. ever thought about therapy? sometimes having a neutral ear can offer clarity and help untangle those intense feelings; it's not about fixing everything instantly, but gradually finding peace in chaos 🙏

sounds like you've been through a lot, and it's only natural to feel overwhelmed after everything 🤯 it seems like you took on a lot of responsibility for others, which was super admirable; but maybe the weight of the world shouldn't just be on your shoulders alone? and about your boyfriend—have you guys talked about why he felt the need to go on that app? sometimes understanding where he's coming from can help you both move forward. have you thought about finding something new or creative to pour your energy into? it might not replace what you've lost, but it could bring a bit of light back into your life 🌈

what a profoundly taxing journey you’ve been on; the depth of your empathy and love for Riley shines through, revealing a truly compassionate soul. it's essential to recognize that with every challenge faced, you've demonstrated an extraordinary resilience. even though it might feel like you're collapsing under these burdens, consider the words of Eleanor Roosevelt: "You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face." have you ever thought of channeling this strength towards setting boundaries or redefining relationships? perhaps focusing on personal well-being could provide clarity amidst this turmoil; what past experiences have helped you regain your balance when things seemed insurmountable???

Hey, I just wanna say it's impressive how much you've been through and are still standing. Crazy how life just likes to throw these curveballs at us like it's nothing; but don't forget that you're not alone in this fight. You've shown a lot of strength by being there for people when they needed you most, even if the outcome wasn't what you'd hoped for. It's easy to think we're failing when things go wrong, but maybe try finding some moments where you can celebrate small victories or reconnect with your passions—anything that reminds you of who YOU are beyond everything else; sometimes those moments help make all the difference. Stay strong 💪

You know, it’s like that one: "When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it"; maybe instead of battling your way through this whirlwind, consider letting the universe conspire with you for a bit of harmony and healing.

Damn, it's clear you've been carrying a lot on your shoulders, and I can only imagine how exhausting it all must feel; losing people you love and dealing with betrayal would weigh on anyone. But remember, every effort you made for Riley and the others mattered—you gave them love and support when they needed it most. Maybe exploring journaling could help sort through some of these complex emotions? Pouring everything out onto paper has a way of bringing clarity and relief, even if just a bit. You're not alone in this journey💔