Triggers that lit that fuse
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I've been very jealous last year and suffered a lot for it. I was so mad it was happening to me that I wanted him to pay for that so I tried to make him see how deeply hurt and betrayed I felt. Anyways, I regret putting that much negative energy on my body, my mind and on him. I love him to death and I'm willing to tolerate things and be more kind and understanding while not losing myself and my self confidence.
He has this habit of wandering eyes and everyday glances at pretty sexy girls everywhere online. Just look. Very rare times I caught him red handed about 3 times and it did such physiological trauma on me that got some sort of PTSD like I wouldn't let go of that image, feelings out of my mind they would repeat all over again. Woke up having nightmares and a constant fear of abandonment.
This year I'm approaching forgiving and calmer. However, when I tend to take time to answer and he says I'm getting bored. I take it as a direct hit. My thoughts begin to spiral like, is he bored of me? maybe that's why the wondering eye?
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I'm sorry to hear that but I think that you should really talked to him about what your feeling it will probably make you feel better and he will understand you better
thank you, I've talked to him about my feelings. He just doesnt identify. Its like its all on my head and Im hurting myself with negative thoughts and almost no proof. In other words he doesnt forget nor forgive or say I love you. Its avoidant attachment behaviour
It's rather unfortunate, but it seems like you're overanalyzing the situation and taking on stress for something that's more about his behavior than your self-worth…