Do I already know the answer but I’m facing it down?
The story
The bottom line was today when my mother told a security officer my personal info like my ID or my full name while I was there and I could already do it. I’m not a motherfucking child. I was angry and I told her about it but she didn’t care, she told me that she don’t want to discuss or grumble. It’s always the same with her. And finally I told her that I don’t want to be on that situation again. So the answer to be seen as a grown up it’s pretty simple but sometimes for me a little bit complicated, or maybe not. I’ll keep doing the laundry, taking care of my room, learn to cook even if it seems pretty hard for me because I don’t know how to do many recipes or when I’m trying they don’t taste the same and they seem pretty ugly, doing basic and complex chores like cleaning the whole bathroom and the kitchen and othe family spaces. And going to places alone trusting my own GPS. Oh, and of course helping them with a little bit of money to pay some basic stuff like food or basic services. So yeah, I already fucking know the answer, and even if they don’t even see me as a grown up well it’s finally their fucking problem not mine. I don’t wanna be filled with anger just because I don’t move my fucking ass to my personal goals. I wanna be smarter and even if I suck at first at the end everything is a balance between trial and error. I’m trying to be better, not bitter and I’m trying to be keep some kind of coherence to my own path.
