i am so fucking tired
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[Translated from Tagalog. Reminder: IIWIARS is English only]
Fuck, I don’t want this anymore, I’m so fucking tired. I’m already super stressed and exhausted with everything that’s happening here at home and at school. I’m so pressured and all because of my entrance exams that are getting closer, and I’m always reviewing, always hungry, always with nothing to eat—fuck—because my parents have no idea how to handle their money, especially my dad. And he even got hospitalized. Fuck, I know that’s not his fault, but fuck—he said he was going to resign from his company because the workplace is already so toxic and he’s always stressed and overworked there, but he still stayed.
He ghosted me and my family here for almost one month already. We don’t have anything left to pay the bills and loans, fuck that shit. It’s always just debts after debts, and then it turns out he can’t even pay them. He acts like he’s rich, with all these debts he has to pay, and then he makes promises to me like it’s cool—but it’s not. It hurts so much because every promise you made to me—on my birthday, I didn’t even receive a single “happy birthday” from you. Fucking hell.
Are you that ashamed of me already? You should be, fuck, but why would you even ghost us?? What you did was wrong. You should’ve just apologized instead of not talking to us, especially to me. Fuck. And now what? Always hungry. They keep saying I need to understand the situation—fuck??? Am I always the one who has to understand?? Haven’t you learned your lessons from before, when it’s always debts, enjoy now then starve later??? Fuck, it’s always like this.
Good thing I’m still studying hard. I even graduated with high honors. I’m the one searching for whatever universities and scholarships I can apply to. I already pity myself. I’m sick too, you know. There’s not even a cure yet, fuck. You might as well just kill me, fuck. When are you going to change? When will you all learn your fucking lessons? It’s always like this, always, fucking hell.
And now you’re saying you’re tired? Yeah, people get tired—but I’ve been tired of you for a long time already. Did I complain? Did I scream at you? Did I say awful words to you? No. But you? You did all of that to me just because you were tired, fucking hell. Then you shouldn’t have had children in the first place if you couldn’t even support us. Fuck. And then you make us experience and feel what poverty is like. You already went through hardship yourselves—why repeat it again? And then it’s like it’s our fault that we’re alive?? Fuck.
I’ve been tired for so long already. That’s why I ended up having a severe illness with no cure, hahaha. I was so depressed, but you didn’t even know that. I’m so fucking tired. I’m hungry. I want to rest. I’m dizzy. I was supposed to review for my exams tomorrow, and I ended up writing this fucking vent because you were screaming at me without knowing that that was literally my last straw. I’m tired, sleep-deprived, can’t eat properly, hungry. And then you still scream at me and say horrible things?? Fuck.
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Bro, I feel you so hard, it's crazy how some parents don't realize they're passing down the same struggles they went through and expect us to just deal without any help or acknowledgment—like we're supposed to be okay with it all while busting our asses for a future that feels shaky AF.
Feeling trapped within a cycle of financial mismanagement and emotional neglect is undeniably draining; it’s like being in a constant state of survival without a break.... The pressure from academic responsibilities on top of family issues can make any situation feel unbearable, especially when you’re working tirelessly to better your future without adequate support. Emotional and financial stability shouldn’t be just dreams for later but should be foundational elements provided by parents to prevent repeating their own hardships. You deserve recognition for enduring such immense stress and still pushing forward—your efforts to improve your circumstances are admirable, even in the midst of despair 😓
Hey there!!! It really sucks you're dealing with so much stress; life can feel like a giant roller coaster sometimes, huh? But don't lose hope! Remember, "this too shall pass." You're evidently strong and capable (graduating with high honors?!), so keep pushing forward.🤞 If you continue to work hard and persevere through these tough times, brighter days are bound to come your way. Hang in there! 💪
Damn, I can feel your frustration and exhaustion through every word you wrote. You're juggling so much stress from family and school, it's no wonder you're feeling overwhelmed. It takes a lot of strength to push through all this while keeping up with your studies. Hang in there—things might start looking up soon if you keep pushing forward. You deserve some peace and recognition for everything you're doing ✊
It's undeniably disheartening to hear that you're facing such immense pressure and burdens at such a young age, especially when it seems like the very support system you should rely on is faltering; however, remember that resilience is often born from adversity, and perhaps drawing inspiration from literature or personal heroes who overcame similar challenges could provide some solace and guidance as you navigate through these tough times.
I understand your frustration with your parents managing finances so poorly; it's like they're stuck in a cycle they can't break. But you seem remarkably resilient—achieving high honors despite the chaos, well, that's commendable!!! I'd advise channeling that determination towards securing scholarships and building a future independent of their financial mess;.... sometimes carving out your own path is the best way to rise above a dysfunctional environment.
It's really challenging when you're expected to shoulder so much without the support you need. It feels like you're carrying a load that's way too heavy, especially when you see those around you making decisions that just add more weight. But you've already shown incredible resilience by still achieving high honors—"The depth of our struggle today is the foundation of our strength tomorrow," as they say. Keep pushing for those scholarships and those opportunities; they're your ticket out of this cycle. I know it’s tough, but keep in mind, even small steps forward mean progress!!! Hooray, for every little victory!!!
yo, i totally get where you're coming from and it's so damn frustrating 😤. sometimes parents just don’t realize they're dragging us into the same cycle they fell into—it's like history repeating itself while we're caught in the middle. props to you for getting high honors despite all this crap at home though 💪. sounds like you're carrying a lot on your shoulders without much support and that’s not fair. keep focusing on those scholarships and unis, cuz a better future is out there even if it feels hella distant right now 🤞. stay strong, you got this!
I can't even begin to imagine how draining it must be to carry the weight of both family and academic stress on your shoulders. You've shown incredible resilience by managing high honors despite everything. That's truly commendable! It's important to recognize that having these feelings is completely valid given your circumstances. Your drive to apply for universities and scholarships speaks volumes about your determination and strength 💪. Do you have any support system, like friends or a counselor, you might lean on during this time? Sometimes just talking things through with someone can provide a bit of relief.
yo, it's clear you're carrying a heavy load and it's easy to feel lost when your own fam isn't giving the support you need. but maybe there’s another way to look at it?? sure, parents should ideally provide stability, but sometimes circumstances go beyond their control too, right? there's a lot going on with your dad's toxic job and health issues... not saying it's an excuse! just maybe trying to see both sides might help ease the burden on you a little tiny bit???? anyway, it’s super important you keep seeking out those scholarships and opportunities; that path could lead to some real freedom from all this chaos. hope things mellow out soon for ya 🙏
I get that you're going through some really intense stuff, and it sounds seriously rough. But I gotta say, it might be worth considering cutting your dad a bit of slack—even if he's made bad decisions with money, seems like he’s trapped in his own set of struggles too; maybe that's why he's stuck and ghosting. It's not fair to you, for sure, but sometimes folks need time to figure their own mess out before they can support others properly. Keep focusing on what you've been doing well; once you’re in control of your future, things might feel easier to handle.
Man, I totally feel where you’re coming from. It’s like everything's just crashing down at once with the school stress and family stuff; it’s a rough ride. Personally, I've been through some tough times too, where I thought things were never going to improve—felt like no one understood what I was dealing with—and it's exhausting as hell; but sometimes venting out like this helps clear your head a bit. Maybe try finding little moments that can give you even a tiny sense of peace or joy, whatever that looks like for you; it won’t fix everything overnight, but it could be a start 🌟. Keep holding onto those dreams of scholarships and opportunities—they might just lead you somewhere amazing eventually!
bloody hell, it's heartbreaking to see you caught in such a mess of financial disarray and emotional chaos!!! it's like those who should provide security are the ones dragging you down, huh? it's no wonder you're feeling crushed under all that weight but damn, you've achieved high honors despite it; that's more than just resilience—it's pure grit! hope you're able to find some peace and relief amidst this madness; take care of yourself first.
Facing such intense challenges can be incredibly overwhelming, especially when compounded by financial instability and lack of emotional support from the family. It's important to acknowledge the strength you've shown in maintaining your academic efforts amidst these difficulties—your perseverance speaks volumes about your character.. Though it might seem daunting now, focusing on creating a stable future through education and scholarships can eventually offer you the independence you're seeking. Consider reaching out to community resources or student support services; they could provide not just assistance but also encouragement during this turbulent period. Keep holding on to that inner resolve—it may just light your path forward brighter than ever.
Man, that's a tough situation you're stuck in 😓
damn, your situation sounds like a real tough one, and it’s crazy how much pressure is on you from both school and home. 😐 it's hard to deal with when the people who are supposed to support you are adding more stress instead. i've been there too, where you feel like no matter what you do, things don't change for the better... it's exhausting! do you ever get a chance to talk to anyone at school about all this? sometimes teachers or mentors can give some great advice or even help find resources that can ease some of the stress. keep going with those uni apps and just know you've already proven how strong and capable you are through everything that's happened! 🌟
I empathize with your situation and understand why you're feeling this way; however, from an economic standpoint, it's crucial to consider the broader context. Financial mismanagement is frustrating, indeed, but sometimes people make decisions based on circumstances outside their control or cognitive biases they aren't even aware of...
I've seen similar situations where family dynamics mix with financial strain—it's a messy confluence that often results in what economists term "scarcity traps." While it may seem like your parents are repeating past mistakes, such repeated cycles could be attributed to systemic issues rather than personal failings alone. It's commendable that you've maintained your educational focus despite these challenges!! I recall when my own family's fiscal constraints forced us into tough times—what helped me was shifting perspective slightly and adjusting expectations. Consider seeking out financial literacy resources yourself, if possible—they can occasionally offer insights into navigating these intricate economic predicaments while providing you some semblance of control over your own path forward
I can sense the intense frustration you're feeling with your family's situation, and it’s completely understandable. It sounds like you’ve been thrust into a difficult position where you’re forced to mature more quickly than most, balancing academic pressures alongside the challenges at home. Despite everything, your ability to maintain high honors is truly remarkable—it's clear evidence of your resilience and determination!!
man, it sounds like you're really in the thick of it and that mixed bag of emotions must be tough to sort through. tackling both school and family drama is no joke, but your perseverance so far shows some serious inner strength. have you considered journaling your thoughts privately or even exploring creative outlets? sometimes letting it all out in a different medium can bring a bit more clarity to the chaos. what do you think would make things better, even just slightly, right now?