Confused
The story
I’m so so frustrated, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I had this childhood best friend ( friends since age 3 ) who I dearly loved but as days went by she kept getting so toxic. For example she started hiding stuff from me while she told those same things to our other friends ( we are in the same friend group ). She went abroad for university while I stayed back and I was at peace for a while but recently I kept seeing that she becomes online whenever I am online. On my birthday she randomly posted a story where she posted pictures of our other friends and wrote “ Family “ . I mean obviously she can put pictures of our friends but why on my birthday????. Am I overthinking this?
What’s worse is that I keep dreaming about her, that we are normal, that she apologized, that we talk about what went wrong and it’s messing with my head. I know it was toxic and I know we are better off like this but I don’t understand what’s wrong with me. I miss her so much?
I keep thinking that it’s my fault that everything turned out like this.
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This situation sounds really tough. Sounds like you're doing some soul-searching, which is never a bad thing. You know, it's so natural to miss people who were significant in your life — and remembering someone you cherished, even when it didn't end well, is part of being human.
I had a friendship turn sour a while back, and it took me a minute to realize that missing them doesn't mean I made a mistake or that I want that negativity back. Sometimes we just miss what we thought things could be.
It's a journey of finding peace with the past and trusting that better things are coming your way. It feels like she may have her issues to work through too, and maybe she just wasn't ready to be the friend you needed at the time.
Just focus on what's good for you now and allow yourself to grow and heal. Keep your head up — you're on a path to something brighter. 🌟
Your feelings are completely understandable, yet it is important to reflect on the overall dynamics of your friendship. Personal growth often leads individuals to evolve in different directions; therefore, it is natural for relationships to change over time. Once, I experienced a similar situation, and focusing on communication helped me gain clarity. It might be beneficial to engage in a conversation with her to express your feelings. This could lead to mutual understanding and potentially mend the strained relationship. It seems you care deeply about this friendship, and with time and patience, there is hope for resolution.
yep, totally see where you're coming from, it's wild how people can change on you out of nowhere. all that sneaky stuff she pulled ain't cool; like why keep you out of the loop while spilling to others, especially on your big day? makes zero sense, "friends since age 3" should mean more. i get those dreams are messing with your head but maybe it's just your mind trying to sort out the chaos. had a mate do me like that once, and letting go was tough, but looking back it was for the best. keep your chin up, better days ahead🏆