emotional addiction
The story
I don't know why I keep doing this to myself, but I'm always finding myself tangled up in these ridiculous relationships where the emotional highs and lows are non-stop. It's like I'm some sort of drama junkie or something. Recently, I was seeing someone and I swear, the red flags were slapping me right in the face from day one! But did that stop me? Nope. Because the emotional rollercoaster (there, I said it) just felt so damn satisfying in a messed-up way. It's like when things were good they were amazing, you know? Those moments had me floating on cloud nine without a care in the world about what was actually going on under the surface...
And then, of course, came the inevitable downswing where everything went to hell and I'm left questioning my life choices again! Can't help but wonder if I've got an addiction to all this drama or if I'm just incapable of having a 'normal' relationship?? Sounds pathetic admitting it out loud but here we are... Like last week when she bailed on our plans last-minute with some weak excuse. My gut told me something was off; but instead of calling her out or walking away like a sane person would do... I chose to stick around for more chaos cuz part of me can't resist that unpredictable excitement. And now here we are once again… Or rather: here I am wondering why this keeps happening!!
