I Want Friends
The story
I want friends so badly, it drives me insane. I have 3 friends but I only consider one to be an actual friend, because the others are assholes. I can’t hang out with my friend often because they live about 30 minutes from me and they go to school while I’m homeschooled. I have bad anxiety so I’m not good at talking to people at all unless I know them, It’s so bad that I can’t even talk to people online to try and make friends because I get too scared and worried. I want to make more friends that live close by so I can hang out more often and just have someone to go out with.
I want to go out more and get out of the house, but I don’t go out alone because of my own experiences with creepy men and pedophiles. It’s not that I want some just to have with me, but I want someone who I can connect deeply with bf not have to think about how and when to drive 30 mins to get there or whatever.
I want to make friends in my area, but everyone my age in my area are just assholes, which was one of the reasons I went into homeschool other than anxiety.
I have this deep feeling inside me like I just want to be held and loved, just to be with someone and feel safe and cared about with. I don’t know if I’m ready to get into another relationship yet since I just got out of a year long distance relationship about a month ago. I just crave touch and affection, but also that level of friendship where I’m comfortable enough to be myself.
I always get jealous seeing people out with friend groups and talking about their friend groups, I know how fun it is to be in friendgroups since I used to be in one a few years ago. I want that feeling again. I don’t know how to explain it but I just feel lonely.
Sure, I have my family, but they just make me feel more alone. My grandma always talks about how I barely have friends and need more, when I’m upset bc my friend did something my dad just tells me everyone is assholes and I need to learn that, my little sister makes fun of me for barely having friends. I just can’t handle it anymore. I’ve thought about suicide and running away, but it wouldn’t help.
For years I have just been wanting that feeling that I know I’m safe with someone for who I am and that I’m loved

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I'm really sorry to hear about what you're going through; it sounds incredibly challenging. It’s tough when anxiety makes socializing feel like an insurmountable task and your living situation doesn't support forming new connections?? I completely understand your longing for genuine friendships that go beyond surface-level interactions. It’s a fundamental human need to feel understood and loved! Have you considered exploring local clubs or interest groups where you might find people with similar passions?? Sometimes shared activities can naturally ease interactions and help establish those deeper connections. Also, societal pressure to always be surrounded by friends can be overwhelming, especially when family unintentionally exacerbates the feeling of isolation. Remember, as difficult as it is, your feelings are valid, and wanting to be loved and safe is something we all deserve. Stay strong and keep looking for those meaningful connections; they’re out there!
I get where you're coming from, but I kinda feel like you're being a bit harsh on yourself. I've been in a similar spot before, and what helped me was slowly taking small steps to get out of my shell; maybe it's worth a shot? I get the anxiety thing, it's a beast, but sometimes just getting out there a little more can open up unexpected opportunities for friendship. About people your age being "assholes," I wouldn't write everyone off just yet. There are always good folks mixed in, and sometimes it takes a bit of patience to find them. 🤔 Also, family comments can be pretty tough, but they're probably just worried and not trying to make things worse. Hang in there, and maybe give it some time!
I know it sounds tough, but it might help to rethink some of the things you're focused on🤔. Wanting friends is totally normal, but calling everyone assholes makes it feel like you're looking at things kinda negatively, you know? I mean, maybe not everyone near you is worth shutting out. Maybe there’s some hidden potential for new friendships right under your nose. You're pushing people away before even knowing them, and maybe that's not helping your situation. Anxiety is rough, I get that, and being homeschooled probably adds to the isolation feeling, but maybe it’s worth trying to connect where you can, like a new hobby or group in your area. Feeling lonely is hard, but it doesn’t have to be permanent. Keep your chin up, try to look on the brighter side, and see what could change! 😊
i totally feel you on this one, it's like super frustrating when you're stuck between wanting friends and dealing with anxiety 😔. the whole thing about needing someone close by to hang out with makes complete sense. i've heard people say "you never really know how lonely you are until you're in a crowd," and it looks like that's where you're at. the part about creepy experiences and anxiety putting up walls isn't something to just ignore, it’s all real and valid. but yeah, it's weird how the people in your area seem like a bunch of jerks, making things even more complicated. being homeschooled doesn’t help either, like, it doesn’t give you the same social chances you’d get otherwise. feeling like your family doesn’t get it can sting, and it sucks big time. i just hope you find some good vibes soon🤞.
I completely get your frustration, and it's totally valid. It’s like you're stuck in a loop, wanting friends but trapped by circumstances and anxiety 😒. Having only one real friend must feel isolating, especially when they're not around often. The "creepy men and pedophiles" situation is messed up; it’s no wonder you're cautious about going out alone. Being homeschooled limits your interactions, and I agree, the jerks around don’t make it any easier. I've been in a similar spot, feeling the unbearable loneliness while everyone else seems to have friend groups. It's like the quote, "the more I know about people, the more I love my dog." Family not being supportive makes it even more exhausting. You're not wrong for wanting a meaningful connection and feeling safe, just know you're not alone in this struggle. Hang in there, things might change for the better 🤞.
it seems like you're focusing too much on what's not working instead of what might be possible; maybe that's holding you back a little? It's tough when you feel isolated, but assuming everyone around is an "asshole" might not be the most productive view. I've been there myself, and changing that mindset helped me see that not everyone is out to get you. Your anxiety is definitely a hurdle, and feeling unsafe is genuinely concerning!!! But is it possible that stepping outside your comfort zone, even just a bit, might lead you to some people who aren't like that? The feeling of being stuck at home is real, but sometimes it takes trying something new to shift the perspective. Stay hopeful, even though it’s easier said than done.
It's rough when anxiety has you trapped and you feel like you're surrounded by jerks. Like, seriously, everyone you know being an "asshole" is just too much to handle 😖. I've been there too, feeling like your so-called friends are just taking up space and not actually there for you. The part about wanting to have someone close by makes perfect sense; driving half an hour to see someone isn't practical when you just want some real human contact. The isolation from being homeschooled definitely sucks, especially when you can't escape your headspace. But dude, not everyone is a jerk, maybe you just haven't met the right people yet. It’s like the saying, "not all who wander are lost," sometimes you just have to wander a bit more to find your tribe. Finding that connection is important, but don't let the negativity consume you. Hang in there, something good might eventually happen. 🤞
i totally get what you're going through, and it really sucks. feeling trapped with anxiety and wanting real friends is rough. the "creepy men" issue is legit, making it even harder to go out. being homeschooled and not having many social options must amplify the loneliness!!! and yeah, people can be jerks sometimes, which doesn't help the situation at all. i remember when i was in a similar situation; it felt like everyone else had it figured out while I was stuck. even though family should be supportive, their comments can sometimes just make things worse. you're not wrong for craving genuine connection, but maybe try small steps to meet trustworthy people around; it might help. hang in there, things could get better. 🤞
coming from a place of sincerity, i think you're perhaps being a bit too quick to judge everyone around you. while your loneliness is real, calling everyone "assholes" might be clouding your judgment 😕. people can surprise you if you give them a chance. "you catch more flies with honey than vinegar," they say, and a little openness could go a long way. anxiety is no doubt a formidable foe, but pushing past those barriers, even just a tad, could bring unexpected connections. homeschooling and a tough environment make things challenging, but approaching the situation with a hint of optimism can be transformative. maybe it's not all doom and gloom, and there's potential for meaningful connections waiting to manifest if you keep a slightly more open heart. there's hope for brighter days if you seize the opportunities.
it's really a tough spot you're in, and i can understand most of your frustrations. feeling like you're surrounded by inconsiderate people can make anyone feel isolated, and it's especially hard when there's such a strong desire for companionship. having to deal with anxiety only adds another layer of difficulty to forming connections. i've been in situations where it felt like everyone around me was closed off or unkind, and it's not easy to navigate that. your comments about safety issues are a genuine concern, and i agree that's not something you should ignore. while it feels like your current environment doesn't offer much hope, it's possible that with time and small steps, things could change; maybe even finding one person who surprises you can make a difference. keep in mind that circumstances evolve, and you might find an opportunity for connection when you least expect it.