how do I not think about it
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I've mentioned this guy in one of my stories before...classmate, me being introverted in general, him being annoying and full of himself, a social butterfly, large group of girlies happy to engage with him, me having some odd eye contact moments with him that make me question- what on earth is he thinking about?? what does that look mean? what are his eyes speaking and and why is he looking at me, I don't speak so like leave me alone? and look I know it might sound like I'm just going on for nothing cuz I feel high of myself now that someone is noticing me whatever whatever, but trust me that is not what I want. I just wanna be there-silently existing, do my work, spend time with friends and go home.
Idk how to explain, but the locking of the eyes is just ... weird? odd? awkward for me? uncomfortable? I've been told it's because I'm trying to figure out what he's thinking and that I'm thinking too deep or serious about this, he might not even be thinking anything etc etc.
the thing is, I hate that he has been randomly popping up in my head- not in the crush way, that's not me. honestly I'm scared to even say more in case his on this, which I doubt, but there's so many other people I could be thinking about, so many other people I could be getting annoyed with. this morning, I caught his smile while he was looking dead straight somewhere on my t-shirt, trying to figure out the words or whatever . generally one would stare back at that kind of person, but I felt uncomfortable and looked away, possibly looking soft? why must I feel anxious being around him, fearing being judged, and judged for what exactly. ugh it's killing me, and I need to get him out of my head, and not let his presence bother me. how?!???
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hey, so honestly, i think you're kinda overthinking this whole situation; eye contact can just happen, and it doesn't always have some deep meaning. just sounds like this dude is super social and maybe doesn't realize he's making you feel awkward 🤷♂️; it's not like he's doing it on purpose or anything. instead of stressing so much, maybe just focus on the friends that make you feel comfy and remember everyone’s gotta deal with annoying folks sometimes. being anxious around people who seem different is normal, but don't let it get to you too much. you do you, and don’t sweat the small stuff!
perhaps you're reading too much into these interactions. sometimes, people just make eye contact without intending any particular message. like that classic saying, "eyes are the windows to the soul," but not everyone sees it that deeply. i remember in school there was this guy who made eye contact with everyone, and people thought he was into them, but he was just a friendly dude who liked to engage. could it be that you're simply noticing this more because you're introverted? or could he just be one of those people who naturally make more eye contact??? don't let it stress you out too much; maybe next time, try giving him a nod or a small smile to see how he responds. it might help clear the air! why do you think it's affecting you so much???
oh man, i totally feel ya! dealing with people who grab unwanted attention can be super awkward!! it's like, you just wanna do your thing and not have those weird vibes thrown your way, right?!!! i had a similar experience back in college; there was this guy who always made random eye contact, totally made me feel uneasy. like, why can't they just give us some space, yeah?!! it's honestly draining—makes you question everything, especially when you're just minding your business. 😅 you're definitely not alone in feeling this way. really makes you wonder why some folks just can't pick up on social cues!!