Trip
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So i went on this trip after winning a contest with my work. And months before all the people who won had only met once and hadn't even talked cause the celebration was busy. Yet somehow, everyone already just clicked. They already became a tight friend group on day one. While by day two i think can count the words i spoke. I'm pretty sure It's my fault, cause, their great, at least they seem like that. i get a lot of anxiety in social enviroments and even when i try my best It's hard to talk to people, i think i don't know how to do It right. i can't naturally gravitate towards their group, can't join any of their convos and I feel bad being around them cause It feels like i'm seeing something i shouldn't, something private, like i'm intruding, i feel guilty. Also i think maybe i've done something wrong without realizing, maybe there's something wrong with my face, but i've been getting weird and nasty looks from time to time. Also i don't know but maybe something Is wrong with my head cause this whole experience doesn't feel like i'm living It. Like i'm just seeing It from a 3rd person perspective. Kind like i'm midly zooning out most of the time, and the rest of the time i'm completly zooned out and It's often at the worst times like when i'm crossing the street or going down the stairs. Ugh. I like this trip but can't wait to be home.
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man, that sounds like such a tricky situation; i totally get it. social anxiety is no joke and being in a new group where everyone just naturally bonds can make you feel like you're on the outside looking in. i’ve been there too, like feeling disconnected from reality almost as if i'm watching my own life unfold from afar, especially when anxious or stressed!!! sometimes it feels overwhelming and it's hard not to internalize every single thing but honestly? most people are wrapped up in their own experiences so maybe those looks aren't what they seem? maybe next time, try starting small with one person rather than the whole group, might take the edge off!! hope your trip still had some good moments for ya though 😊
it's understandable to feel this way in a new social setting, especially when others have already formed connections. sometimes the anxiety builds its own narrative, making us second-guess everything from our expressions to our actions. you mentioned that you sometimes zone out: could this be your brain's way of managing overwhelming situations? i’ve had moments like that as well, and often found that jotting down my thoughts helped ground me back into the present moment. if it seems everyone is clicking naturally now, remember friendships can also develop over time and in smaller settings. hopefully, once you're back home, you'll find clarity and maybe even some insight into what could help next time!