I am useless
The story
feeling totally useless rn. i lost my job, and it's seriously messing with my head. like, i can't seem to do anything right these days. everything went downhill so fast, and I'm just stuck here wondering what the heck to do next. I'm kinda embarrassed about it all, so I've been avoiding my friends and family. they don't need to see me like this when I don't even know how to explain what's going on.
it's crazy how much a job loss can shake up your confidence! sometimes i just lay in bed thinking about all the ways I failed, like replaying a bad movie over in my head. i feel like there's this huge gap between who I was and who I am now; but yet I'm trying to remind myself of that one quote "every great dream begins with a dreamer"....it's cheesy, but maybe there's something there?
i've always heard people say that things happen for a reason, that doors close so others can open or whatever. honestly tho, doesn't feel like any door is opening right now. i'm not sure where to even begin rebuilding everything that's fallen apart.
oh man... am i rambling? 🙄 anyway, i'm hoping putting this all out there might help me get some clarity or maybe meet someone who's been through the same thing. idk, just trying to stay positive while figuring stuff out.
