Just a uni student struggling
The story
I just need some reassurance please. I am in my third year of university I have been a straight A student. My university system is like there will be 3 semesters per year with a 14 days break in between each semester.
Thankfully I have been able to cope with the previous semesters but this semester I can feel and see myself completely breaking down. I am a scholarship student so it’s important for me to maintain my grades at the highest level and take around 5 courses per semester. I can’t risk my scholarship as my parents are relying on it alot.
I am just…. So tired. My teachers are giving quizzes and exams on the same day, such that I am getting multiple exams of completely different syllabus on the same day and when we request them to postponed it they don’t even care. Everything here is so memorization based, throughout my school life I have studied by understanding the concepts but here in this different curriculum they expect us to just memorize from A-Z, they don’t care if you actually understood the concepts or not. My mid terms ended and my teachers started rushing through and finished 2-3 chapters in one class. On top of that one of my grandparent passed away and my parents are constantly arguing so it is difficult to have a calm mind and study.
Furthermore, I know it’s bad of me to complain but I never even wanted to study here, I am doing so as my country doesn’t have much science options and my parents didn’t have enough faith in me for me to try out in the line I originally wanted to go to. I keep telling my mother that I can’t do this anymore, I just want a break and she says do better in your finals, do better in your quiz. I wish I could take a semester gap but I can’t, the university will cancel my scholarship and remove me from the achievers list. I tried asking if it’s possible but the university won’t listen, I have very weak bones so I can see myself suffering from the pain as I am stressing alot but university said they will only keep my scholarship if I provide any “extreme reasons” lol. I feel so bad, I barely get time for myself, I barely get time to do clubs or anything that I enjoy because I’m stuck with studying 24/7 because I am scared of what will happen if I stop studying.
I don’t know what to do. I’m scared to disappoint my parents as of course I have previously heard many degrading things regarding me as a student but I genuinely, really can’t handle all this memorization crap anymore.
Sorry for the long rant, I just don’t have anyone who is willing to listen.
