Life Stories and Everyday Drama - page 51

I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately, more than I probably should. I’m 20 years old, been in a relationship for a few months now, and on the surface, things are fine. She’s nice, funny, thoughtful, always checking in on me. We get along well, don’t fight, and everything seems… okay. But that’s kind of the problem—it’s just okay. I keep waiting for that spark, that big overwhelming feeling everyone talks about, the one where you just know you’re in love. But it hasn’t come. Not even close. And I’m starting to wonder if it ever will. I don’t dislike her. I enjoy spending time with her. But when I think about the future, or even just picture us next year, it’s like looking at something blurry. No clear image comes to mind. And it’s making me feel guilty, like I’m lying by staying in this relationship when my heart might not really be in it.

I’ve talked to a few friends about it, and I get mixed advice. Some say love takes time, that I shouldn’t expect fireworks this early, especially since we’re both still young. Others tell me if I’m already questioning things, that’s my answer right there. But it’s not that simple. I don’t want to hurt her. She’s done nothing wrong. She cares about me, probably more than I deserve, and the thought of breaking her heart makes me sick. But at the same time, I keep asking myself—is it fair to stay just because I don’t want to be the bad guy? Isn’t that worse in the long run? I don’t want to settle into a relationship just because it’s comfortable or because I’m afraid of being alone. But the fear of regret is real too. What if I leave and realize I made a mistake? What if I’m just not in the right mindset and this is all in my head?

We’ve had good moments, don’t get me wrong. Little laughs, shared jokes, quiet nights watching dumb movies. But there’s something missing. It’s like there’s a wall I can’t get past, a layer of emotion that never really shows up. I keep comparing what I feel now to how I’ve felt in past crushes, where I couldn’t stop thinking about someone, where I felt that ache when we were apart. With her, it’s different. I don’t count down the hours until I see her. Sometimes, I even feel relieved when plans get canceled. And then I feel awful for feeling that way. I keep telling myself maybe it’ll change, maybe I just need more time. But how much time is enough before you admit something isn’t clicking? I see couples who look crazy about each other, and I wonder what that feels like. I’ve never had that, and I’m scared maybe I’m just not capable of that kind of love—or worse, maybe I just haven’t found the right person yet, and I’m wasting both of our time pretending I have.

So yeah, I don’t know if I should stay in my relationship. I’m trying to be honest with myself, but the guilt is eating at me. I don’t want to be cruel, but I also don’t want to lie by staying when I’m not really all in. I wish someone could just tell me what the right answer is. I wish I could look at her and feel that certainty people talk about. But I don’t. Not yet. Maybe not ever. And until I figure it out, I’m stuck in this weird place between not wanting to hurt her and not wanting to hurt myself by staying in something that doesn’t feel right.

at my workplace there is a rule about smells.

if you smell offensive to anyone it's apparently a crime.

now.... I know what you're thinking: "oh god.. why? just take a shower!" ..no, I'm talking about smelling TOO good.

apparently...

if you have a shampoo or conditioner with fragrance.

if you have an air freshener in your car that gets on your clothes or the air freshener is in your closet and gets in your clothes.

if you use an overly fragrant laundry detergent or fabric softener.

if you use those laundry beads or sheets.

if you have a perfume/cologne, or a body spray.

if you brush your teeth or chew gum in the vicinity of another person and you happen to breathe on them for whatever reason.

...those are all no-no's, very bad. if someone complains on you several times you can be sent home or written up.

on the other hand..... it's PERFECTLY ok to smell "natural"

if you fart all day long.

if you burp non stop.

if you smell like alcohol or cigarettes.

if your teeth are rotting.

if you brought an 'exotic' lunch.

if you don't shower.

if you constantly sweat.

if you wear a diaper or a bag and do not change it.

if you are against wiping yourself in the bathroom.

if you don't wash you clothes but instead only rinse them with water.

if you have pungent foot odor.

if for whatever reason you save your pee/poop in a bag, jar or can.

or... any other "natural smell" that may offend another person.

that is all allowed. no one will say anything to you if you are a "natural" smelling person even if someone else, or multiple people, complain about how much it offends them. in fact if you do complain about a "natural smell" in your area that doesn't go away like a fart or burp and it is actually a smell coming from a living person... management will tell you "if it bothers you so much and you feel ill or nauseous then take your time and go home." management won't even let the "natural" person know because it's against the rules to possibly embarrass or shame a person's existence. if the "natural" person does or does not practice hygiene that is a workplace issue BUT since it is a natural smell, THEIR smell, it is seen as an extreme type of body shaming. that is against the rules. so the only ones that get in trouble are the "unnatural" or artificial smelling people or people that use such products.

I daydream about my mother in law dying. I will maintain my composure when that day comes but it will probably be one of the happiest in my life. To never have to endure her presence again.

I was studying in a rich-people school in Pune and dropped out in middle school. The kind of people in that school were nothing short of monsters. They'd make fun of me behind my back, call me all sorts of derogatory names and there' s a huge list of the kinds of shitty things they' d do. Once, there was a kid in my bus who'd bully me relentlessly, and there'd be times where I would have to sit on the floor of the bus, cause that douchebag(let's call him Richard) would tell everybody to avoid me. I complained to my class teacher and she tried to talk to Richard but he started playing the victim midway and went to the boy's bathroom and told everybody that he was going to commit suicide all because of me. I was painted to be a goddamn criminal and everybody isolated me. There were numerous instincts of friends backstabbing me for their own benefit. The teachers never helped and blamed the person who was getting bullied and licked the feet of the rich. All in all, it was a horrible, terrible experience and I hope that those people rot in hell.

If you could create your idea pet... What pet would you wanna have, from looks to personality🥰!?

I'd personally like a small animal. One that's soft as a chinchilla but doesn't call for high maintenance😅. I'd also like my animal to be similar to a cat in appearance, but naturally unclawed, or somewhat dull claws like koalas🐨. At least last I remember, koalas have sorta dulled nails, but a tight grip💅🏻. I don't agree with declawing unless the animal is a very bad hazard to youngsters, and even then, re-homing is the best option... But I don't know people's circumstances🫠.

Anyway... Continuing on my ideal pet creation. I'd want my pet to be medium haired... Not too long, not too short. Again... Soft, like hella soft☺️!! I'd want their ears to be pretty large, but not to the extent of discomfort to the animal. I'd like the animal to either be black, black & white, or all white. I like the idea of the Yin-Yang thing, so I'd probably have 2 of these cute creatures and have one white and one black, Yin and Yang names of course.

I'd want my pet to not cause allergies... Cause allergies are a b*tch😑!! I had a cat, and I didn't have allergies, but my family does, and I'd want my family to enjoy the presence of my pet too.

I'd want my pet to be calm in demeanor. Not super hyper. Some people like the active animal, but I'm sorta a laid back person when it comes to energy use. A quiet animal would be nice, but I'd want them to make super cute little noises if they did speak🥰!!

And lastly... An animal that's good with grooming and smells super good... Not to the point of wanting to eat the creature... But I hug and snuggle with the little fur-ball🤗!!

...

Oh☝🏻😲! I almost forgot... I want a cuddler... A pet that enjoys a good cuddle. So, basically an animal that doesn't mind the heat. Since I run really warm🥵.

That's all...

But let me know, what would you guys like in your ideal pet🤩🙏🏻✨!?

My dang Owala bottle hasn't been shipped in yet😑. Contacted customer support... They says there's delays😩!! This bottle is supposed to be a gift for my bestie when I see her in May😭!! I know this is a weird place to be writing this topic, but I felt like venting... I'm currently working on getting in handled, so no worries there... I'm just a tiny bit frustrated with Amazon... Since I've never had this issue with them😒. They're usually on top of things when I order something😮‍💨. Anyway... I hope everyone is getting all their online shopping done and are having success in receiving their shipments😄🙏🏻✨!!

Eat good food and drink lots of water😋👍🏻✨!!

I'm in my 20's... I'm living my life and I have sorta been in a rut. But then I thought... Why not try something I used to live again🥹🙏🏻✨!! I used to play the djembe drum from 4th grade to my 2nd year of college. But I took a break due to my mother's cancer journey. Now I've moved and I have the means, time, and energy... I wanna get back into one of my former passions🎶. I am a little worried that I'm rusty... Since it's been a fair amount of time since I've banged a drum🫠. It's been a year and a half to be exact😑. I'll be going to the Las Vegas Drum show and I'm so pumped to get my very own djembe drum... Since I used to only use the ones school and college provided🪘😅.

Any... It's never too late to start an old passion... Nor is it too late to start a new passion🥰!!

Wish me luck🍀!!

Also, I just wanted to ask but, I hope that no one thinks I'm culturally appropriating the African culture by playing this amazing instrument🪘. I'm East Asian, and I grew up with all sorts of different music from Latin music, Hispanic music, East Asian traditional music from China, Korea, Japan, etc, European classical, Native American music, and more. I just love the art of it all, and I have the highest respect for all cultures who've put in the time, effort, and passion into their art!! Just wanted to put the disclaimer out there for those who sometimes get triggered by cultural appropriation☺️🙏🏻✨.

I'm a single girly and I'm curious about the bestest ways to meet people. I recently am able to drive around and got my ID's and stuff... Super jazzed about that. But I'm curious, since these days most people just suggest dating apps... And I've tried them...😑.

They didn't work out🫠. Plus, even though money isn't technically an issue for me anymore... It's annoying as all heck to have to pay to find love or at least a compatible relationship😒.

I'm also new to the area I live in, and I don't know what people would recommend meeting people😅. Especially in this day and age.

I'm totally open to meeting people, even if it's just to make friendos... But it's hard to tell if people would be open to being friends with a stranger🫠. Life ain't like the movies where there's a convention meet-cute and we all dance around the fire and sing kumbya🤪!!

I think my mental health has gotten better, I eat better, and exercise more... And now I'm ready to meet other like minded individuals... But where🤔. And what do others look for? No one really ever gives detailed descriptions of what they want in a partner🤷🏻‍♀️. Maybe cause they don't wanna be perceived as judgemental, or maybe they haven't thought about it... But I'd really like to know such things before delving too deep into a relationship. Obviously not overwhelming the other person, but sharing some major red flags or make or break things. Do you people know what I'm saying🥹🙏🏻✨?

Do you believe in the love languages ✨👀? I personally think they make things easier to categorize😊. And there are intricate meanings and experiences that stem from each love language. Plus, the interpretations of them can be very different for different people🤷🏻‍♀️❤️.

Love languages: Quality time, physical touch, gift giving, words of affirmation, and acts of service.

And a single person could have multiple love languages, or different levels of each love language📈📉.

My first, that I can think of is quality time⏳. The time I spend with my partner would make me feel appreciated and loved. And knowing that they have their schedules figured out to plan time with me would be most appreciated😍🙏🏻✨(I'm single BTW, 2025).

My 2nd love language that most people don't have as their 1st or 2nd(that I'm aware of)... Is words of affirmation. Most people say that they believe actions only... I also believe in actions... But I personally wanna date someone who knows how to express how they feel about me whether that be positive or negative feedback depending on the situation. I like the whole poet sh*t and the kinda person who isn't afraid to share a silly dad joke(even when they're not actually a dad)😂!!

I'm gonna skip the others and just go to my least favorite... Acts of service... I just can't🫠. I am aware of my aloofness and I've been around friends and family who have this love language as their number 1 or number 2. I just can't. I can't fully understand when someone needs my help unless they verbalize it... Which is frustrating for me cause I haven't met anyone with this love language as their 1 or 2 who is good at asking for help rather than expecting someone to see them struggling and automatically helping them. I'm just not that person... Nor would I want that for myself🙃.

Anyway... I'm super, super curious about other people's opinions and comments on this subject... Cause it's fascinating to me, whether one believes this or not.

Also, a side note ....... FOOD IS NOT A LOVE LANGUAGE!!!! Food items technically categorizes under acts of service or gift giving. Just wanted to put my opinion of that out there before someone tells me that their love language is FOOD🤣!!

Heyah! I'm just gonna go by X...

So, yesterday, March 28, 2025... I was in a minor car accident. At least I thought I was in a minor car accident🫠. But my cousin... Who's a personal injury attorney said, "nope, what you went through wasn't a minor car accident... I work on cases like these for a living"😅. So, apparently it's not normal for a car to be completely dented in after being hit🤷🏻‍♀️. And it's not normal for the metal to be sticking out🤦🏻‍♀️. But that's beside the point . I thought I was fine, totally fine. But I think I was just in shock. The next day rolls around and my arm is bruised and my hip isn't happy, and I'm hella tired🤕!! And luckily my Lyft driver wasn't the one who caused the collision, but it's still annoying that the large car hit into my side of the door😑. Be safe out there lovely people... Cause you never know who's out there and what kinda driver they are😐.

Eat good food and drink lots of water😋👍🏻✨!!

Heyah!! 1st I wanna say... To whoever reads this... I give you full authority to copy my idea that I thought of just now... Since I know for myself, I'll never be able to achieve it... I'd like someone else to if they have the means to do so...

So, you know how plastic is hella annoying, and it'll last forever basically... Or at least for a good few hundred thousand years or so... So...

Why not invent books filled with knowledge... Fully made of recycled plastic from wasted bottles or other discarded plastic junk. Knowledge is power, and why not preserve the knowledge into something that most likely will be around for a sh*t-ton amount of time. Plus, with this idea, less trees would be needed for making paper.

Anyway. To whoever is able to make my dream come true... I thank you and so does this Earth and I guess future people who want to enjoy knowledge.

I'm gonna go write another story/random conversation on this app, but feel free to comment or like😄👍🏻✨!!

And if this idea already exists... Then I look forward to seeing more developments into this idea😍🙏🏻✨!!!

In sta gram : (no spaces) happy _ xiaohang 100

Have a wonderful day lovely humans👋🏻😃!!!

I'm headed back to California in May and I'm so pumped to see my bestie🤩🙏🏻✨!! We're planning to go the the Cat Lounge and I'll finally get my cat addiction fulfilled😻!!! I miss the beach and I'm currently living in the desert and it's annoying as fork for my poor hair😱!! But I'm so glad to see my friendo😄! Plus, we'll be celebrating our birthdays together too🥳!! 24 BABY🎊🥳🎉!! Year of the snake🐍!!! Anyway, I hope that everyone is doing well. And eating good food and drinking lots of water😋👍🏻!!

I bought a harmless cap gun that was bright orange and cost 279.99 dollars. I waited for 2 months and then found out that it had been seized by border patrol

Some days, I sit at the kitchen table when everyone’s gone to bed, and I just let myself breathe for a moment. It’s quiet, finally, but my mind is anything but. I love my family more than anything, but honestly, it’s hard. Really hard. People don’t talk enough about how challenging it is to keep everything together. I have three kids, all different ages, all with different needs, and a husband who works long hours. Most days, I feel like I’m juggling too many things at once—laundry, homework, grocery lists, dentist appointments, making sure the little one eats something besides pasta for the third day in a row. And while I’m grateful to have them, I sometimes feel like I’m disappearing in the middle of all this. Like I’m no longer “me,” just “mom,” the one who’s supposed to fix everything.

There’s also the emotional stuff, the things that don’t get posted on Facebook or shared in group chats. The tantrums, the teenage silence, the worries about if we’re raising them right. My oldest is starting to pull away, and I know it’s normal, but it still stings. He used to tell me everything. Now it’s just shrugs and “nothing, mom.” And my middle child—she’s so sensitive, so emotional lately. I worry I’m not giving her enough attention. The baby still wakes up at night sometimes, and I’m just… exhausted. But I keep going, because that’s what moms do, right? We keep going. But inside, I worry all the time. Am I doing enough? Am I messing them up somehow? Am I being a good wife while trying to be a good mom? Because some days, it feels like I’m failing at both.

Money’s tight, too, and that brings a whole different kind of stress. It’s not just about affording big things like vacations or new clothes, it’s the small stuff. School fees, birthday gifts for classmates, a pair of shoes that suddenly don’t fit anymore. I find myself up at night trying to plan out the next month’s bills, wondering if we’ll make it to the next paycheck without dipping into savings again. My husband does his best, he works hard, but sometimes I wish we talked more about how all of this is affecting us. I can tell he’s tired too, but we rarely sit down and really talk. We’re just passing each other, getting through the days. And I miss him. I miss us. But even when I want to bring it up, I don’t know how without making it sound like I’m complaining, so I keep it in. I keep everything in.

Despite all of it, I try to stay hopeful. I try to find small joys—the way my daughter hugs me when she’s sleepy, the silly jokes my son still makes when he forgets to be “too cool,” the way my husband reaches for my hand in the dark when he thinks I’m already asleep. It’s not perfect, not even close. But it’s ours. These family challenges, as draining and frustrating as they are, also remind me that we’re still here, still showing up for each other, even in the mess. And maybe that’s enough right now. Maybe it’s okay that I don’t have it all figured out. Maybe part of being a family is learning how to get through the hard stuff together, even when you feel like everything’s falling apart. I just wish someone told me how heavy it could feel some days. But even so, I wouldn’t trade it. Not for a second.

Things for next year / my glow up

Work: cafe / Dairy Queen / last resort irrigation

HOODIES

Thin graphic sweaters (12-27$)

No hood(14-20)

Chunky(18-25$)

SHIRTS

tangtops(3-7$)

Shoulder show(5-8$)

Graphic tees(7.99-12$)

PANTS

pants that cover my feet(15-20$)

Baggy jean(12-29$)

Sweat pants(11-19$)

Leggings(6-14$)

SHOES

convers (49.99$-70$)

Chunky shoes(40-80$)

Tall shoes (49-60$)

MAKE UP

eyeliner(1-6$)

Mascara (3-9$)

Concealer (7-12$)

Eye make up(11-20$)

ACCESSORIES

hair bows (8-10$)

Rings(7-20$)

Necklaces(11-20$)

Belts (7-14$)

Bracelets (17-20$)

EXTRAS

Get lip piercing(13-18$ for Jewelry, 50-100$ for just the piercing and around 30$ for jewelry)

Get other side of nose pierced (180$ pretty much)

Maybe eyebrow (30-70$)

Nails(100-150)

Be quiet

ALWAYS have headphones or earbuds(10$ depending on how many I have to buy)

2 friends 3 max (birthday gifts at least 15$)

Ear piercings (30-150$)

Total (without tax or cents)

929.98$

Pick up as many shifts as possible

Nothing other than work for summer

Get tips

Clean great

(11.15$ per hour)

Maximum 8 hours per day to work

40 hours a week 7am-closing is 8 hours depending on staff

89.2$ per day (take away tax 55.75$)

Let’s say I get paid once a week of twice that’s 55.75$ a week if not then 111.5$ plus tips so round 120$ at best. If Rebecca pays me extra out of generosity mostly a 10$ bill

If I save up I can have 929.98$ by the end of month 8, by month 9 I’ll have 1,003.5$

I’ll start with the expensive things

Pants

Shirts

Belts

Nails

Shoes

Etc

2 months I’ll have 111.5$ unless I get paid more often and get a pay raise