Life Stories and Everyday Drama - page 2

soooo apparently i interrupt people without even realizing it. got this feedback from a colleague during a meeting last week and let me tell you, it felt like a slap on the wrist 😅 i mean, i genuinely value what others have to say! it's not like i'm trying to dominate every conversation... but now i've become super self-conscious about it.

it's like walking on eggshells. is anyone else hyper-aware when they speak or is it just me? especially in work settings where bombarding someone with opinions isn't protocol (duh). listening actively is suddenly feeling more like trying to defuse a verbal bomb;

then there's the personal side of things. certain friends seem less chatty these days and now i'm paranoid it's because of my conversational habits. maybe i've bulldozed through our exchanges more than i thought 🤔 hope it's fixable, friendships shouldn't feel so transactional...

i wanna learn how to pause more effectively between ideas and not jump in too early but for some reason that pause feels longer than the wait for new game releases 🎮 any strategies? constructive suggestions? hoping there's light at the end of this discussion tunnel!

Look guys, before I come across as ableist to you, just know I'm aware of their problems and I know they're real struggles. I just wish they weren't so unpredictable and I know why they're upset, and not just blame it on myself all the time.

For a while I've struggled with friends. Ever since I was young, it's been that way. That's why in school, even with tight-knit friends, sometimes a few of them struggle a lot. Hell, one of them has left school probably due to mental health problems sinking their grades. It sucks. I really enjoyed their company, because I knew them since kindergarten but it was only a bit recently that we truly got along and I felt less nervous to be around them. Back then, they told me they had some mental diagnosis and they take some meds, which I understand bc I suffer eczema and I also take some medications (I know they take mental meds, it's just that we both take medicines for chronic illnesses), but I honestly felt awkward around this person for many years earlier

Initially it was because they were a close friend of my crush, who's now just a friend of mine (her and I are just friends now, I moved on), but back then, I thought I hurt her feelings by confessing to her and telling her about a...certain crush dream I had (if you catch my drift, and yes I feel horrible about it), and she had replaced me with the friend who has now left school, and I was "the disgusting filthy human being". That was one of the many things that caused me to be in a depressive state for I think 1.5 years. It was me thinking she left me, I was all alone, I was isolating myself from everyone, my grades were dropping, I stopped drawing for a while, and I felt distant and alone even with family and even went through a spiral of thinking I was a god of some sorts, that my pain was me "thinking straight" when it wasn't. I don't know how I got out of it now, but I'm okay now.

Anyways, being with some friends, knowing at least one of them has a diagnosed mental illness or something, is kinda harsh. I already have a fear of being left out by friends, but to be with a group of people that's unpredictable is...scary. I hate that I'm scared of it. I know it's not their fault. But I know one of them has a diagnosis, one of them probably has dyspraxia, and another has just a generally kinda crappy household. My closest friend (not ex-crush) is fine, but she doesn't know I also struggle with everything else from my other friends. One of them is distant from me for some reason, and I can't help but think to myself about every wrong thing I did, no matter how small. If friends is school according to dad and movies are "petty, shallow and only for fun", what if she's quiet because she found the smallest of reasons to hate me? Then my very existence burdens her. I hate that I'm a burden. I just don't like how unpredictable things are, and I wish at least it made sense. That it should be more...predictable.

I hate feeling like a burden, but to whoever friend is struggling right now, in their home, school or mind, live with love. I clearly burden you too much.

Moving to a new city was supposed to be a fresh start, a grand adventure filled with new people and opportunities. I mean, who doesn't dream of living in a bustling metropolis where you can reinvent yourself? Yet, here I am months later feeling more isolated than ever, despite having tried everything under the sun to forge connections.

I took the plunge for this brilliant job opportunity that seemed like a godsend: it was practically screaming 'grab me now or regret forever!' Packed my bags and left all the familiar faces behind. It felt like one of those rom-com scenes where the protagonist jumps into unknown waters without a life jacket but with lots of hope. However, reality turned out to be no Hollywood blockbuster.

First thing on my agenda was signing up for activities: yoga classes, book clubs, even pottery workshops! I threw myself into these groups with genuine enthusiasm thinking they'd be my saving grace (spoiler alert: they weren't). My experiences ranged from mildly interesting to downright bizarre. One knitting club spent two hours debating whether cats or dogs are better companions; as someone who's allergic to both, I found myself questioning why I was there at all.

Conversations have become like reruns on television: same lines but played by different faces. Small talk about weather slides uncomfortably into awkward silences faster than you can say 'awkward turtle.' It's like trying to build a sandcastle only for it to crumble before your eyes every single time. Maybe something's wrong with me...like perhaps I'm coded incorrectly for social interaction?

"Persistence is key," they say as if perseverance alone can summon lifelong friendships out of thin air. But after countless failed attempts at connecting past surface-level dialogues...well let's just say it's easy enough telling people "oh yeah things are great here" while secretly longing for any real sense of camaraderie... or even somebody half-listening when venting seems apt.

I've been grappling with a perplexing situation at work. For several years, a colleague and I have maintained what seemed to be a harmonious relationship. We've worked together on multiple projects, exchanged ideas, and even shared some interests outside the professional sphere. However, in recent weeks, there's been an inexplicable shift in how we interact. My colleague has begun to ignore me both during work hours and beyond; it's as if I've become invisible.

This sudden change in behavior is unsettling! It feels like hitting a wall every time I try to communicate or collaborate with them. Our teamwork, which was once seamless and effective, now faces obstacles due to this silent treatment. Projects are delayed because the usual back-and-forth discussions are nonexistent. I'm left wondering if I've unknowingly offended them or if there’s an underlying issue I'm not aware of?

This uncertainty is affecting my mood significantly....it's challenging to focus on tasks when you're burdened by unanswered questions! Should I confront them about it? Or would that only exacerbate the situation?? In this industry where collaboration and open communication are crucial for success, being ignored can hinder one's professional growth considerably!

Quoting this one I like: "Great things in business are never done by one person." This resonates deeply with me now more than ever. Maintaining healthy interpersonal relationships should be everyone's priority yet when experiencing something like this it’s difficult not to question your standing within the workplace dynamics!

So here I am, trying to figure out how to get over some serious trust issues with my partner 🤔. Ugh, this whole situation is such a mess! Like, snooping through someone's journal is a massive no-no, right?!!

Anyway, I found out last week that my partner went ahead and read through my personal stuff without even asking 😒. And now I'm left wondering... how can I ever trust them again? It feels like a betrayal that's hard to shake off. My thoughts are all over the place;

It's not just about one mistake! It's the principle of it: respect and trust. Both took a major hit with what happened 😞. How do you even begin to mend that kind of broken bond? Every time I'm around them, there's this huge invisible wall between us. I'm tired of pretending everything's fine!!!

I'm considering having an open conversation about boundaries and trust but honestly, will that be enough?? Words are easy... actions not so much! Maybe setting clear rules on privacy could help??? But can you really put rules on something that shouldn't need them in the first place? This doubt is eating me up inside!!!

I have always wanted to live in this city. It is vibrant, full of opportunities and seemingly everything I hoped for in a place to call home. Starting a new job here should be thrilling, right? However, ever since I began, an inexplicable sense of melancholy has taken hold of me; it's hard to explain why or where it comes from. Despite being surrounded by supportive colleagues and promising prospects, this feeling lingers like a persistent cloud looming over my life experience. How do people deal with such situations when everything should feel like it's falling into place?! Even the routine tasks that once brought joy now seem burdensome and insurmountable… the enthusiasm just isn't there anymore.

Amidst the clamor of coworkers' chatter and the ever-busy streets teeming with life, I find myself sinking deeper into this mire of emotions. What happens when you can't shake off emotions linked so closely to circumstances you thought you craved? Feeling guilty about not matching expectations adds salt to the wound. Is it psychological burnout already?!😔 Or maybe the initial excitement was just masking underlying issues? Why must our minds play such tricks on us? This contrast between what should be happiness and this dreariness is confusing and exhausting... My personal journey through these times makes me question if I'm even cut out for this industry or lifestyle.

So I've always been scared of failing my exams and I pretty much messed my today's exam and last exam too. I'm in 2nd sem of civil engineering and so I'm really so scared of it. I'm feel so demotivated and I don't know how to face my parents. Even though I know life doesnt end when you fail or messup exams and there are ups and downs in life, still I feel like I wanna give up on everything. It feels so scary and I feel so dumb. I feel like I'm the only dumb person and everybody is so smart, Like why am I the only one so stupid and always messing up exams, how do I get over this fear. Maybe I'm really insecure, I really don't wanna feel like this but I'm just so tired. Nothing goes ever right, Everything is so shit, I'm so tired of my family's expectations, I just wanna free from this shitty insecurity and fear. I guess I'm the only one who'll stay stupid and always mess things up.

yo so lately i've been sleepin like way too much after this breakup i went through. it's kinda gettin outta hand ya know? like every time i try to get up and do somethin productive, bam! i'm back under the covers snoozing away 😴 i keep tellin myself it ain't good but damn it's comfy in there... really though, my job's startin to slip cause of this nonsense and i'm worried bout how long i can keep bluffin my way. are breakups supposed to do this or am i just weird now?? responsibilities waitin on me but who knows if i'll ever feel fully awake anymore;;;; once-upon-a-time i used to be a go-getter, no lie! nowadays my bed's become my all time fav spot which shoulda been a red flag but here i am still tryna convince myself it's nothin serious when deep down i question if i'm slowly morphing into some sleep-obsessed hermit.... anyone else been through this madness?! plenty of coffee chuggers out there i'm sure but can you relate or is it time ta find a new hobby besides napping???

i swear it happened again! i'm sitting in this super important meeting. everyone's talking. suddenly i feel detached, like i'm floating or something. it's crazy how the world fades out, you know? can't focus on a damn thing and everything goes fuzzy, ugh!!! makes me nervous that my colleagues are gonna notice or think i'm slacking off; friggin hate this feeling.

just yesterday, i was trying to piece together what went down in our project review. my boss is staring with that 'are you even here' look. hell no i'm not there!!! everyone else just nodding along while my brain's elsewhere... so embarrassing!! tried to stay calm but end up missing key points.

then there's this one part where i just froze?? lost track mid-sentence, like poof...gone! it's like some magic trick that's more life-ruining than amusing. 😅 bet someone thought 'wow what an idiot', sorry but bpd really messes with your head!

gotta admit, scares me thinking job's at risk if they catch on. i mean, how do you own up to dissociating mid-task without sounding nuts? workdays shouldn't involve mental gymnastics!! tired of pretending things are fine when half the time i'm checked out. everyone talks coping skills as if they're easy fixes... wish it were that simple.

So here I am, stuck in this never-ending loop of self-sabotage, all thanks to my ridiculously high standards. Seriously, the expectations I put on myself are like trying to lift a boulder with a toothpick. I mean, who came up with this nonsense? When I don’t hit these impossible targets, it’s not just a “whoops, I missed” kind of vibe. No, I dive headfirst into a personal pity party, complete with emotional self-flagellation, as if I’m the main character in a tragic play about my own failure.

Sometimes I think back to all those motivational quotes thrown around at leadership seminars. You know, the ones that claim “Excellence is not an act but a habit.” Thanks, Aristotle, but that doesn’t make my life any easier. Society has this fun way of embedding the idea that perfection is the only path forward, and I’ve internalized that so well that it’s basically my mantra. So instead of cheering myself on when I make progress, I just whip out my mental whip and go to town on myself for not being perfect.

Every time I don’t hit a goal, there’s this annoying little voice saying that I can’t escape public humiliation while grappling with my own expectations. Take last spring, for instance. I gave a presentation at our big industry conference. Sounds impressive, right? Well, everyone was patting me on the back, but inside I was like, “This is mediocre at best.” Why? Because I didn’t follow the rigid plan I’d crafted weeks in advance, and that just made me feel like a failure.

Looking back, this whole self-destructive pattern kicked off way back in college. It started small, like when I bombed a mid-term and suddenly felt like my entire academic career was in flames. And it didn’t stop there. It infiltrated my work life, my social life, pretty much everything. It’s like a bad sitcom that just keeps getting more ridiculous every episode. No amount of intellectualizing this mess seems to stop the cycle of criticism I put myself through. It just keeps growing, like a weed that won’t die.

Maybe if I admit to all this craziness, I can finally do something about it. If I can learn to treat myself with a bit of kindness and cut the self-punishment, maybe I can unpack these weird beliefs that have taken root in my brain. It would be nice to finally replace that inner drill sergeant with someone who actually wants to see me succeed instead of constantly expecting perfection. But hey, baby steps, right?

I'm not really sure where to start, I'm exhausted thinking about it, trying to understand it all. The person love most (l've never loved some one to this level before we've had a rocky relationship/ friendship for 5 years. She'd beg to be with me or see me or get upset with me for not talking to her but every time she talks to someone l end up getting blocked for calling out her behaviors and such but recently we've had 10 and half months of good close very close contact.

Her blowing up my phone every day, begging to see me every weekend, needs to be near me. Well she acting weird a month ago and then she said she was spiraling and needed to focus on her self. I had a feeling that she was doing something like talking to someone again, on Friday she finally admitted it, she's now acting like never even mattered.

We got into an argument for about an hour then just joked around for another hour. I ended up kicking her off all my subscriptions and she in turn made her Spotify profile private and removed her self from one of our playlist(we have two.) I'm not sure what to do anymore, hate when she acts like this. I feel extremely hurt and betrayed, but all! want is her

I know the title is harsh but it’s the truth and pretty straightforward. She’s not always a bitch, which is why I can say I love her but sometimes when she’s stressed it’s like a unanimous vote collectively agreed I am the punching bag for her misfortune.

Seriously. I’ll just be checking on her and suddenly she’s rude, disrespectful and lowkey aggressive. For example, when I ask her question about something she’d normally tell me an answer or explain it for me. Simple right? Well when she’s stressed, she insults my intelligence and says it’s common sense.

I then say, why is it so hard to just tell me without feeling the need to put me down? She gets mad at me and tries to justify her rude behavior. The aggressive part is when she puts her hands on me. I don’t think it’s abuse but idk what would be abuse tbh

so if I say something that she considers disrespectful she’ll tell me to come here and when I do she grabs my arm and pull me towards her. My mom is heavy handed so that shit hurts and when I tell her to stop that hurts you’re bruising me and my skin is red (because I’m light skin so I get red a lot easier than my mom) she just says that I’m not and completely ignores me.

At that point I wanted to cry but then she’ll just call me sensitive, smack her lips and let me go. Then when I try to leave, she’ll say “oh now you wanna a leave cus you didn’t get what you wanted.” It’s so weird and bizarre because my mother does NOT act like that yet when she’s stressed she’s a different person.

I’m totally aware how sensitive and empathic I am. But that doesn’t give anyone the encouragement and leverage to treat me like that. Especially my own mother. I know I feel things a lot more than people but I use that to distinct how I perceive people and what they mean to me. And that? well that is shitty behavior that I hate experiencing.

I turned 18 last weekend but I can't say Im happy as I feel so low at the moment .

I feel overwhelmed and anger and upset 24/7 and college isn't helping.

No one seams to understand how frustrating it is to be enfold onto a course you've all ready done and unfortunately did not pass and to be re inrolld onto it bit not to be aloud to do any of the work so you are sitting in a classroom for an hour doing nothing learning nothing.

To be told you are going to be kicked out of you can not finds a mother course. but you should not be in the situation in the fist please as it's there own cult for in rolling you onto the same course again.

but they keep telling you if you don't finds a course you will be kicked out .

But since I started at that college I haven't felt like it was the right fit as I've always struggled with the work they gave me since day 1 and I am left in limbo untill they or I find I different course tht is a good fit for me .

but I don't know if I actually want to continue going to that college if I'm feeling like this.

I am already look into other college and possible jobs I can do.

As I have to take into account that I have Adhd a middle learning disability and knee issues.

both me and my mum as sent the college emails explaining how I have been feeling lately.

Any thought or tipps Wellcome.

I recently found myself moving back in with my parents, you know, just to save some cash before heading off to grad school. I'm 25 now, and for some reason, I thought that living at home would offer a cozy escape. Little did I realize, the dynamics at home hadn't shifted an inch since my teenage years! My parents? They're still stuck on imposing curfews like it's 2010 all over again. It's baffling how they manage to keep questioning every little decision I make: my choice of friends, what time I'll return home (seriously?), and even the music I listen to! I'd like to believe I'm an adult capable of making informed choices, but it's becoming increasingly difficult when I'm treated as if I'm back in high school. 🙄

The first few weeks were manageable; after all, it was nice having warm meals without any hassle and being surrounded by family. However, as days turned into weeks, their need to practically monitor my every move became suffocating. Just last week, I was out with some old pals and ended up extending our dinner plans only to find myself being barraged with texts from Mom asking where I was! At one point she even asked if I had forgotten their house rules... house rules?! I mean... come on now... I'm not trying to be rebellious here but isn't it acceptable for adults to have flexible schedules?

Despite an occasional sigh here and there when talking about this situation with friends (who are most certainly bewildered), I can't help but weigh the pros against cons constantly; surely these savings will pay off once grad school kicks in...but is peace of mind worth compromising over financial prudence? An internal conflict swirls on whether or not having a serious chat with them would prove fruitful or simply intensify matters further such as setting stricter boundaries instead of loosening them up... Who knows what may happen next?