Life Stories and Everyday Drama - page 3

We'll go months without sex quite frequently......not I do the cooking the cleaning, the running of the kid...... anything involving getting off the couch. She does till work. However it's come down to sex ever 3-6 months. It honestly breaks my heart sometimes when the kids at a sleepover or something else and I get shot down....like crushing. I feel like I'm just here to be the house servent most of the time and miss the connection to both physically and emotionally.....but fuck me what am I gonna do leave my wife with MS because I'm basically the unloved servant.....and what does that say to my daughter.....mostly I think this is my life now, and I love her......but my heart breaks daily because of it.....not sure if anyone else has the same but best of luck to you if you do you're not alone.

I'm struggling a lot right now and my grades are horrible but my parents refuse to show any compassion or get me help. they're fully aware that I'm not doing well and that I harm myself but they just don't care. they took all my electronocs and money to make sure I can't do anything until I fix my grades, and we all know it can't happen if I don't get better. they have been this horrible all my life but now it's worse than it's ever been. apart from the fact that they're incredibly strict they also love invalidating me in every possible way. I can't do this muc

I've been strugglately and school is making it even worse

I’m loosing friends left and right. I don’t know why but it’s making me feel like shit. I’m 16 years old but I need to get out of this house. Out of this town. Out of this state. My mom is suffocating me with responsibilities; maintain a good social life, but you can’t have friends if you’re failing a class. Keep good grades, but 80’s aren’t good enough for us. Take care of yourself, except for when we need you to do something. Follow all of the rules, but when you make a mistake it’s the end of the world.

they aren’t letting me grow up. I feel like I’m choking and I can’t escape. There is no escape. Emancipation is out of the question.

everybody hates me here too.

One friend group is excluding me rather than finding a compromise, and another has just ghosted me. I don’t know if I have any real friends left. I break my back and a half for them and all they say is “we want more!” And when I can’t provide, I’m thrown away. There’s nobody else here I can talk to. I don’t want therapy. It makes me feel gross.

I can’t make friends with the people here because they either can’t function in society or they already hate me.

I can’t escape

I don’t want to kms. I want to leave.

find new people. Get out of this hell hole.

I feel like throwing up all the time.

i try my best not to sh cuz i made a promise.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t want to run away but I do. And I don’t, but I do. every time I open my mouth I’m annoying.

"I don’t know what I have left. I have put so much effort into making money, but I can't find a job that aligns with my study schedule where I live. I’ve suffered significant losses in the stock and money markets, and I feel I can no longer face my family with the reputation I once had. With every passing day, I feel like I am getting worse, falling from a position where I was always the best.

I feel like I have made my life incredibly hard, and the pain makes me want to give up. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror. I try to avoid talking to people as much as possible because I’m afraid they might catch a hint of how difficult my life has become. I feel as though I have nothing left to offer."

So basically

I have strict parents. I’m hanging planning a hangout with my friends, I usually drive them all around (I’m not allowed to) and do whatever they want.

Recently, I’ve been on thin ice with my parents because I took someone home (fuck that istg) and now I have to kinda keep rule-breaking to a minimum. They want to cruise around and go nowhere, and my parents don’t like that. I also want to cruise, so I suggest “hey, can we pick a place that’s far from where we are so we can still have the cruising time?”

they shut me down instantly.

They told me I was being a jerk for asking them to accommodate for them when I drive them literally anywhere they want, whenever, wherever, even if it gets me in trouble. Now I’m feeling bad about it. Am I in the wrong?

My life at home with feels like An Idle Brain Invites The Devil In by Salem The Musical. My mom tells me my family is "happy" and "Christian", yet makes me feel like a servant than her daughter. Majority of the time, i hear her order me to do chores. it doesn't matter if i'm tired, i need to obey her or she'll give me a weird stare as if i acted lazy. She shows more affection to my little sister, and i guess that because my little sister is easier to control. My mom promises that she will change and have more self controls after our discussions during fasting and yet she uses violence as 'discipline'.

She neglects me too. When i asked if i can at least try therapy or professional help to at least know what i am feeling or what i need, she pressures me. Saying that it's just the evil in my head and that i should get more to make me feel guilty because therapy and the things i want is expensive, as if this situation is a joke and not something she needs to take seriously. She warned me that people might label me as crazy when they find out about my issues as if she doesn't spread about what i vent to her or that she doesn't have full control of the things she can share like our family image is valuable than me.

*I quit my job in the province my wife and i were living in because it was physically killing my body, and my step-son needed emotional help and physical help with fixing up his condo and things like that, since his Dad was never there for him. So, we moved 2 provinces over to help my step-son.................which is my wife's son..............out with all this. I've been also trying to take some of the stress off him by driving him to work everyday, usually with my wife too. It's been hard trying to get another job since my wife wanted me to focus on my step-son to help him out so much, and driving her back and forth to doctors appointments, and taking her to do all the grocery shopping and all the other shopping while he works. My step-son wants me to get a job as fast as I want one, but my wife keeps saying, 'let's see where i'm at after this doctor's appointment and that doctor's appointment, while at the same time also wanting me to get a job as fast as possible. She keeps changing her mind all the time and it's driving me nuts.

Also, her son doesn't talk to me much at all, Every time he comes home from work, I say 'Hi' and 'How was your day?' and things like that, but he never really responds to me at all and his eyes are always on her. Every time i open my mouth to say anything around my wife, i'm pretty much ignored, but when he speaks, it's a full on conversation between the two of them. I always feel completely left out of everything, and that i'm nothing but a chauffeur.

Also, neither one of them ever ask if I'd like to watch something on TV, it's always what they want. I've basically gotten to the point where I just plant my face in my laptop, sit in my own corner, and I keep my mouth shut unless i'm spoken to. Every time I say something......anything.....and my wife is sitting right beside me on the couch, she doesn't even acknowledge me. But when her son speaks, no matter where he is....................she answers him and it's a full blown conversation, basically between the two of them. I feel like.......................like i don't even exist anymore.

Am I selfish for wanting intimacy.............for wanting attention?

I am a 48 year old male, married to a 64 year old female. We haven't made love in 5 years due to her vaginal inching on the outer side of her vaginal lips. She's been to several doctors and nurse practitioners over all this time, and they just keep telling her to use creams on it like Replenish or KY Jelly. She won't even have a shower with me anymore.......keeps saying we will, we will, but it never happens. I can't even put my arm around her at night because she complains i'm too heavy. I'm just a small figured guy with some muscle, not a lot, like a Wil Wheaton type build. Am I crazy for thinking she just doesn't want to touch me anymore? There's other things too...........................

It's a little silly, but I started building a playlist that basically marked me throughout my life. It started off silly with The Crazy Frog because...who hasn't heard The Crazy Frog as a child, right ? But then, the more I listen to the music I used to listen to, the more it made me realize that wow, I was a pretty hopeful and positive kid, and I started crying thinking "how dare those people hurt a child like that and why did I let myself get bitter ?". Still crying as I type.

Anyways, I'm off to putting in more songs. Btw, I'm considering sending the finished playlist to my therapist. Should I send it ? Hope y'all have a good day/night !

what's the bloody point when you miss your ex, really? you're sitting there, 27, thinking you've moved past high school drama, but nope, you're right back there. they left you three months ago after three intense years together, and now you're spiraling into a bottomless pit of depression. is there a secret manual for getting over an ex that everyone else somehow got but you missed? if sharing this is going to make any sense, let's break it down.

to put it bluntly, it’s a daily grind. you wake up every day hoping for some magical cure or one of those flicks where you bump into someone in a coffee shop and everything just falls into place. spoiler alert: shit's not happening. your heart's tied to someone who might not have been the right puzzle piece after all. or maybe they were and universe is just screwing with you. you're stuck in a loop, thinking about her scent, her stupid laugh, the way she made you coffee on cold mornings. fair warning, you might become one of those coffee-obsessed nutcases pretty soon.

but seriously, what are your options when the loneliness eats you up daily? pretending you're okay is a common go-to. you dress up, put on that 'i don't give a damn' façade, but inside, oh boy, you know it's raining cats and dogs. you could dive into new hobbies or some self-help BS, but the reality is far from motivational quotes. sometimes, you're just lying on the couch questioning your existence or scrolling endlessly through social media pretending you’re searching for a life hack. it’s all a load of bollocks, innit?

sure, everyone sings the whole “focus on yourself” song, but let’s face it, they don’t know your pain, do they? it’s like everyone turned into self-help gurus overnight. everyone’s an expert in feelings except you. being miserable doesn't come with a handbook. eating ice cream or crying into a pillow is about as therapeutic as it gets. you want to ask the universe or whoever's in charge of this mess, “can I unsubscribe from heartbreak, please?” but you know better. it's not that easy, and you’re stuck trying not to curse your past life choices.

here’s the kicker – you're supposed to "move on" and "find someone better", but what if you just want a break from the circus of life?! let's be honest, there are no easy answers here. it's trial and error, with an extra slice of error just for good measure. you might miss her, but life's a bitch and life ain't waiting. are you going to keep reminiscing about the past or finally get off your ass and write a new chapter? time’s ticking, what’s your move?

i am just so tired. i am a second semester senior and i dont feel the joy everyone else feels right now and it feels like my life is in shambles and i have noting together. my family is dysfunctional, im slowly losing a grip on my grades, all my friends hate eachother (please see my college apps are ruining my friends story because suprise suprise its gotten worse), i have litearlly nothing going for me and i am writing this while sobbing uncontrollably. i am so tired, my mother has cancer so i take care of everything, litearllty everything you can imagine in a household. bills? did it. sister's swim practice? already omw. cooking? already meal prepped for the whole week. except im under appreciated and burnt out i am depressed and anxious all the time but i cant talk to my mom about it because shes already so sick i cant do that to her, my poor baby sister is going through middle school drama and im her only parental figure, and my dad hates me like he goes out of his way to ignore me and i have to look like i can hold everything together and be put together and go to school and run my four clubs that im president of and deal with my crappy friends who keep shoving their college acceptences in my face and ask me about mine and mock me and still do research and work three jobs and act like everything is ok. im so tired of life im so tired of living like this i sleep at 2am and wake up at 4:30 in the morning and i drink so much caffine everyday just to stay awake and i still have to do good in my four ap classes because everyone said i took five last year why cant i handle it. i hate everything about my life and baout me right now. i have nothing going for me no prom date no boyfriend no one to love me or to love no college to look forward to i hate my body i hate my face i hate everything about me i hate how some underclassman look up to me and i hate being called slurs and a bop and a whore around school just because i like to dress and look a certain way i hate the steryotypes i get i hate everything i wish something genuinally terrible would happen to me i dont even have time to go see my thearpist and no one understands and i cant talk to anyone. there is no light at the end of the tunnel. im so tired.

He told me "I'll never love you, as much as you love me".

I love too deeply, I care too much. I pour my heart and soul into every person I care about. He's socially awkward. He has a hard time expressing and understanding emotions. I've managed my expectations because I know he's right. I know it's not malicious. I know he loves me and he has done so much for me.

I just wish I could feel him love me as deeply as I love him but, it's unfair to ask that of him.

I've spent so many years, in such dark places in my mind. I put so much of my heart into people because I know what it's like to hurt. I want everyone I care about to know they are loved. I want them to feel supported, so I do anything I can to help.

I've never expected that back from anyone. It wouldn't be fair to expect that much from someone else. It hurts just the same though, when you take a step back and look at it. I just want someone, anyone, to love and care about me the way I care for everyone else.

It seems so simple.

It feels so selfish.

so this is a follow-up of my last post

I accidentally told the guy I like that I like him while his partner which i didn't know was his partner or that he had one was on the phone to him. his partner felt insecure and asked him to reject me which I completely understand as I did tell this guy I liked him while his partner was the phone. I said it was all okay while trying to cry. I then get a message from him apologising for the way things went down but I get why he did what he did. his partner then asked him to unadd me on snap which he said he didn't want to do but I told him it was his choice and I would understand either way so he did unadd me but he screenshotted my username b4 he unadded me so idk what that means. did I do the right thing by being so chill about it and why am I upset about it. have u ruined our friendship with this confession

Hello.So me and my fiancé have been in a touch place as a relationship for a while now.Its been many months we are getting worse and worse towards each other.I am really tired of over explaining and then classically seeing the mix “apology-good for two days-same things again”.We are not talking about abuse ,cheating but more of a emotionally instability ,lack of accountability and lack of responsibility.I am recovering from burnout and he is steadily getting into one.I have set boundaries many times until I actually gave the ring back saying that it means to me more than the work he is putting into us being ok and feeling good and understood in the relationship.We have a vacation to our homecountry planned in two days.Yesterday during a minimal fight he said that I should pack only my things and when we leave not to come back.I said that he is not going to tell me when and where I will go.Also told him that I have never told him to leave.To what he answered You couldn’t tell me to leave from MY house.And that hit me.I am currently not working but do have money for home expenses ,as he does ,and we are renting this house together.He was loving and pushing towards being the provider.And when things like that happen I am worried that he is going to be like this for all of our life.I don’t know if I want to make things work anymore cause I don’t trust him,actions and words do not match constantly.I feel red flag ist vibes from him. He also gives me the silent treatment from time to time.I am not a sunshine either cause I have reached my breaking point and speak bad and get mad pretty fast the last couple of months.The thing is should I actually do what he said and not come back?!I don’t want to be talked like that and I think some lines should not be crossed whatever the situation.He brings flowers washes dishes and provides but not being present on anything else whatsoever.What do you think?