Life Stories and Everyday Drama - page 26

For a month now, I have felt many negative emotions (more than usual) and have been extremely demotivated in my life.

I think my boyfriend is also unhappy because of my current state and I feel guilty. Right now I am so weak mentally, it's hard to change. I am trying but the efforts are so big and the results so tiny.

I wish I could see a therapist but i can't afford to see one at the moment.

I feel so helpless.

Any tips on how to shift mindset? or how to be more gentle with myself? idk i just wanna change, i hate myself

How can i get more things and be more productive when i feel so tired and overwhelmed and nervous all the time? I feel so horrible and i want to hide away from everyone and everything.

Things are Just too much right now. And i never know what to do. Sometimes the only things i can manage Is either sleeping for almost the whole day or shutting my brain off looking at my phone or Just pacing around my house.

I'm so tired. I felt tired for so long now. It's so hard to find energy or motivation when i feel like doing Is Hide and sleep for the rest of the day. I am trying to be better but it Just doesn't work. Everything Just feels so tiring. It feels like everything Is falling apart at the seams all at once.

im a 16 year old girl yet my voice sounds like a 12 year old boy with a stuffed nose. i hate it so much i want a more feminine voice so badly. when i talk to some people online they comment on how they think im a guy😭. not everyone but some and it just pisses me off cuz i cant even control it. I wanna talk to so many people but im scared ill get judged

Or maybe I should rephrase it being ‘alone’ yk I might just be saying this bc of my situation like I sit alone at school no friends but yk I have kinda learnt to deal with it and I’m still bothered but it doesn’t make me that sad anymore. Ok so the main thing in jan I posted a video saying ‘I want a movie where they idolised being alone instead of always makimg it seem like a bad thing’ with the caption- where the characters ACTUALLY have no friends and are still happy and surprising it did get a lot of views and comments 😭 but it was controversial in the comments apparently? Like some people were saying ‘cause it is depressing ? 💀’ others were saying like ‘no it’s not. We don’t always need to be with people’ OK LIKE I GET WHY SOME PEOPLE ARE LIKE ‘humans need connection’ but just hear me out. Like believe me I HAVE tried making friends like I’ve gone up to a girl abd was like hey and whe low-key looked uncomfortable 😭 still regret doing it and just yesterday I tried again she was AWKWARD like hopefully u get what I’m saying like yes I’m sure that whole human connection thing makes sense but yk some people just don’t have good people in their lives. And BRO FONT GETME STARTED ON MY MOTHER. Like when I told her I have no one in school that I just sat alone she was like why don’t u try? like that’s not normal! We need people u need to change your mindset! But u see the thing is like bro I have kinda changed my mindset to not needing people bro if I badly wanted people till now my mental health will have become so bad🙏 like I kinda hope u understand my perseptive of wanting a movie like this? Like a character who has no friends and still is happy yk their entire life is based around others. I don’t wnat advice on making friends IVE TRIED I want to be truly happy alone

Honestly, there is more than just my school that i wanted to talk about, so ill put it in also right after school, first thing is that in school, im always told by my friends that most of our classmates or people in the school hate me, only cause they say im over dramatic, a main character, and more, i guess its cause im the only one who tells them to be quiet of fix the chairs when its required…

But its not like i dont know about this before my friends told me, i know people hate me, i always hear them whispering my name, mimicking my voice or even hearing my friends tell me they heard them say fat jokes about me, like that i only came to the certain event for the food..

I would tell a teacher, but i worry ill get hated even more… and its hard already considering most of the people there hate me, and i wont be able to tell my family either, cause last time i did they keep cutting me off and get mad when i snapped at them or tried stopping them from spreading their version of my story, where it would seem like im the one at fault…

But it might be true though, what if im the cause of such things?, what if even if i try doing it cause its good, ill only be seen as annoying?… what if im not soft hearted and in fact im just the over dramatic freak they say that cries or gets mad too easily?

What if when i tried venting to my friends, they were correct when they told me im the reason for such things and that im the cause of family drama, and that it is all in my head?…..

Its easier to tell these through a message than to speak them, after all, i have no one left to talk this to, and if i tried getting therapy, my family would call me crazy… what could i possibly do?….. and am i too young and just misunderstanding everything even though i have felt this way for years now?….

(i'm a filipino so i'm not that fluent in english)

i have this one boy in my class let's name him cat. he is taller than me, moreno, he's funny, smart, and sometimes he's kind.

he have this friend let's name him nit ,a smart one too, more calmmer than him.

i liked nit, but that changes when we cof (me, our president, cat, nit,etc.) join on a competition for science jingle. me and cat gotten closer making me fall for him and stop liking nit since my other frind likes him. one day me, my bestfriend,cat and our president hangout and decided to go to the mall. we were eating some fries talking then my bff spoke "lika magsabihan tayo ng top5 na mga tao na crush natin or kung na attract tayo saknila" we all agree and our president went first, then cat on top 4 or 3 he mention my name which make the three of them laugh and i was just shock that time, i then give my crushes he's on the second place. little did i know my bff actually plan it all cuz she knew i have a crush on cat and cat have feelings for me too.

Does anyone else suddenly realize they're a placeholder friend like you're just there to make space for the cooler better you? In my life most of my friendships are temporary and I'm always left behind. And I would understand if I did something but I never have, people in my life always leave. I've come to expect it now, if I never reach out then I'll never talk to that friend again because I'm always the one reaching out. I guess I just need a friend that wants me around for once. I guess I'm just lonely.

Like why tf couldn’t he just be taller 💔 wasted opportunity (not like anything actually gonna happen if he was tho 😭🙏)

Ok so I actually just downloaded this app just to get this of my chest . OK SO LIKE THERES THIS BOY AND LIKE YK SINCE LAST SEMESTER/YEAR HE DEFINITELY STARES AT ME like honestly I wouldn’t totally mind it but HES SHORTER THAN ME AND LIKE NOT EVEN MY HEIGHT LIKE NO. ITS JUST UNCOMFORTABLE BUT LIKE HE DID AND EVEN THOUGHT WE AREN’T IN THE SAMR CLASSES ANYMORE HE LWK DOES STARE AT ME. Like this is something I would usually rant to friends about but I don’t have any <3 ok Sooo back to him like he definitely fine BUT HES SHORT and even at first I was like why is he staring like I’m literally taller than u 😭 BUT ITS NOT JUST THAT like once last year he was staring at me as I was getting stuff out of my bag and like I stared at him too AND BRO HE CLEARLY AINT SHY ABOUT IT BC HE KEPT ON LOOKING THE AUDACITY. I fumbled tho and looked away 💔 WELL I JUST WANNA RANT THAT WHY TF COULDN’T HE BE TALLER💔💔💔💔 man ig he’d continue id prob HSVE a crush on him for the rest of the year (is this technically a crush??? I HOPE NOT💔) also like yes I have ranted b4 and some one was like ‘just move on’ AND IM TRYING TO BUT FIRST I NEED TO PROCESS THESE EMOTIONS but I do kinda need advice on it tho like today as I was getting ready to leave I’m not entirely sure but i high-key felt a glance AND BRO I ALMOST DID DMT EMBARRASSING INFRONT OF HIM(thank God that didnt happen 🫡) and I DID NOT LOOK AT HIM. So Yhh that’s my rant

Whenever I get depressed I want to cry but if I do I find myself wanting to drown in my tears all my life I've told to stop crying and toughen up. Is this fair to you? I can't help that I'm sensitive. I once didn't smile for a little while and I went pale to my friends bc I always would smile and be happy but how am I supposed to be when everything is after me

I grew up most of my life without my birth mom due to drugs. My father never showed love to me and favored my little sister and it broke me. I found myself going online for any hint of love even if they were creepy men (I didn't know) and this happened many times but I loved how they loved me and how they treated me

I have ADHD and I will sometimes have panic attacks which I find myself stuck in. Why is it that my ADHD gets in my way? How do I stop it?

So I’m 27 f my son’s father is 52 m. My son is 1, and his father and I have been together for 6 years. So I was really young when I got with him like 21 , & he was in his 40s. He had children my age that sided with their mom in a nasty divorce, I never knew much of them. I know most people are going to judge me for that , but it just didn’t concern me really, and I was young. For context, he and I had substance abuse issues before my son came around, but we’ve been sober his whole life. He has 3 siblings, 2 oldest are 27 & 24 f, and the youngest is 18m. My sons father has tried to be apart of his sons life and the son isn’t interested in having a relationship with him and not trying to meet his brother either. He didn’t push it ir anything, just has mentioned he wants to see him and loves him, asks how he’s doing and the most recent time verbalized that he has a little brother , and he doesn’t even care to meet him. And it makes me sad as a mother because even tho they’re older, he could still have a relationship with his elder brother, but it’s just not encouraged on the other side of my sons brothers family to see this side of the family. It makes me feel bad that when he sees other sibling relationships and learns that he does have older siblings and doesn’t know him I don’t want him to feel bad about it. We’re doing everything we can to live a clean healthy life and raise our son right, while making amends for things we probably could have done differently with our families. I just couldn’t imagine my father having another sibling and not even wanting to meet them.

I am growing up with a strictly Christian grandma and I am religiously neutral and I don't think God doesn't exist but I don't think the heavens exist I am stuck with what she thinks and my own opinions what should I do?

I cut myself to release stress and feel better but my mom says its dumb and ridiculous. How do I stop?