Life Stories and Everyday Drama - page 66

Whenever I get depressed I want to cry but if I do I find myself wanting to drown in my tears all my life I've told to stop crying and toughen up. Is this fair to you? I can't help that I'm sensitive. I once didn't smile for a little while and I went pale to my friends bc I always would smile and be happy but how am I supposed to be when everything is after me

I grew up most of my life without my birth mom due to drugs. My father never showed love to me and favored my little sister and it broke me. I found myself going online for any hint of love even if they were creepy men (I didn't know) and this happened many times but I loved how they loved me and how they treated me

I have ADHD and I will sometimes have panic attacks which I find myself stuck in. Why is it that my ADHD gets in my way? How do I stop it?

So I’m 27 f my son’s father is 52 m. My son is 1, and his father and I have been together for 6 years. So I was really young when I got with him like 21 , & he was in his 40s. He had children my age that sided with their mom in a nasty divorce, I never knew much of them. I know most people are going to judge me for that , but it just didn’t concern me really, and I was young. For context, he and I had substance abuse issues before my son came around, but we’ve been sober his whole life. He has 3 siblings, 2 oldest are 27 & 24 f, and the youngest is 18m. My sons father has tried to be apart of his sons life and the son isn’t interested in having a relationship with him and not trying to meet his brother either. He didn’t push it ir anything, just has mentioned he wants to see him and loves him, asks how he’s doing and the most recent time verbalized that he has a little brother , and he doesn’t even care to meet him. And it makes me sad as a mother because even tho they’re older, he could still have a relationship with his elder brother, but it’s just not encouraged on the other side of my sons brothers family to see this side of the family. It makes me feel bad that when he sees other sibling relationships and learns that he does have older siblings and doesn’t know him I don’t want him to feel bad about it. We’re doing everything we can to live a clean healthy life and raise our son right, while making amends for things we probably could have done differently with our families. I just couldn’t imagine my father having another sibling and not even wanting to meet them.

I am growing up with a strictly Christian grandma and I am religiously neutral and I don't think God doesn't exist but I don't think the heavens exist I am stuck with what she thinks and my own opinions what should I do?

I cut myself to release stress and feel better but my mom says its dumb and ridiculous. How do I stop?

since 4th grade I've been getting bullied but I once prayed to god to make me more pretty but I didn't get it I got self-confidence and idk if that was actually god bc I'm religiously neutral but I don't know what changed

I just want to clarify that I love my friends. I've actually talked to them about this. This is just one thing that has been bothering me about them, and I know they just want me around. But I think I've had my patience run thin this week ever since a new game came out. My friends all complain when someone else does this to them, but THEY'VE BEEN DOING IT THEMSELVES. It's been grating me, like my brain is perpetually hearing nails on chalkboard and I just want to let it out.

I know hanging out in silence or parallel playing is a thing in group calls, I do it too. But don't fucking call me or ask me to join a group voice call, only for you to do something else entirely to the point of ignoring me. One example is my friend always asking me to join a call, then just out of the blue decides "OH I need to go on a bit of a walk, brb!" one fucking minute after calling me. They don't even hang up and call later, they just fucking leave me in the call for 30 minutes to an hour to wait for them (I know because one time I stayed to see how long they're gone for, I hang up on them now when they do this).

Another example is one friend asking me to hang out with them, but when I come in, they're all playing a game together. They'd ask me about my day, but when I do tell them but then they're too fucking busy playing that they don't even respond to me. It's one thing if I came in, fully knowing you guys are playing and I just want to see you play a game. It's another to outright ask me to make time for you guys, and just flat out not even acknowledge me. What was the point of calling me here in the first place?

It takes a lot out of me, too, since I get easily tired with social interactions (I love socializing, my energy level is just very low). It's even more exhausting when they specifically ask for my attention, and they just outright fucking ignore me even though THEY asked me to join them.

I don't know, I know it's not that serious. But sometimes, it just feels like they're not respecting my time at all when they do this, and it gets so exhausting.

I'm 19F and my gf is 21F, my best friend lives with me (M23). he started acting weird when me and my gf started dating but i thought nothing of it. Untill he started saying bad things abt my gf or pointing out "Red flags" randomly; She is one of the nicest peolple ive met and we've been dating for 5 months. He started saying he didnt want her over at the apartment anymore and such. We got in a fight over it but i eventually folded and now i stay at hers most nights. Untill last night when i got a call from my gf that at her work he went up to her and told her to break up with me. He called me a whore and said she was too good for me and that she needed to end it. i was furious and now im staying at hers full time because she knows he was lying.

I’m dating this guy right now. He’s absolutely amazing and deserves the world but I want to break up with him. Not because I don’t love him anymore. The thought on breaking up with him makes me sad. But I’m not in the right mental space right now. I feel exhausted and tired and just done with everything. I told him multiple times that I feel like that before dating but he kept pushing it and now we’ve been dating for a couple months. I made the decision to break up with him because I think it’s best for me and him. How do I do it?

I have 2 accounts which one is fake and bullies ppl and my main account is to protect those ppl is that ok?

Me and my ex girlfriend were in a relationship for two and a half years. Until we hit a wall. Wed been camping and her parents loved me and so did she. But unfortunately as she moved off to uni we realised we were in two very different places. I loved that girl with all my heart and wouldve married her given another couple years (were both 19) and i know she loved me but it just wasnt meant to be it seems. It hurts to lay in bed and realise shes not the smiling pretty face next to me anymore and realising ill never be able to give her a long warm hug again. All those nights spent listening to vinyls and slow dancing and chatting and just loving eachother comes flooding back. After she left it felt like my hesrt was torn out and taken with her never to return. Shes moved on and has a boyfriend already but i just cant because id devoted myself to her and to moving in together and getting married and having kids etc. Hell even moving to her home country for a more peaceful life together. Now i just feel so.... empty.

hey, im tj and i would like to vent.

my life sucks and i feel as if i dont matter.

my sister is constantly rude to me, my mom is busy and doesnt have time to talk and my dad would belittle me if i tell him aboutt my struggles.

the only people keeping me alive are my friends.

I have these day dreams where I torture people or I have to sacrifice myself to save everyone else and some days I'm happy but other days I feel like the life force I was born with is fading away into nothing.

I'm a graduating student this year but the college I'm attending is combined with its own high school, elementary and daycare. It gets pretty hectic during school events but on weeks with regular agenda, it's mainly a shitshow waiting to happen.

Apart from having innocent professors get blame for fuckery they didn't do, the classes are downright useless and a waste of time. The instructors are awesome but their subjects need to go to hell.

But what really takes the cake right now is its most recent nightmare fuel: receiving only one day of no classes (when it's supposed to be three) after the school games that stole everybody's Saturday and Sunday wrapped up.

In case it wasn't clear enough, this school is run by a Catholic reverend so you can tell he's a royal pain in everybody's ass. If you are truly devoted to beliefs, this guy can inspire you to turn your back on all of that and be an atheist. I swear, he's such a fucking joke that isn't funny.

Apparantly, the school games weren't good enough for his pompous ass because nobody was cheering until their voices were hoarse and because the events themselves didn't receive as much praise as he wanted. So, as punishment, we only got Monday free and then classes resume immediately.

My birthday celebration falls on that date, which is what pisses me off. I was promised Monday, Tuesday and fucking Wednesday off but leave it to Mr. Holy Water to fuck up the plans. What a waste of a good fucking outfit and a good fucking time with friends. I hope that alcoholic son of a bitch takes his blessed microphone and stick it up his Oh-So-Holy ass.

Can't wait to graduate and get the fuck out of this hellhole. I can only have fun with friends at a limited time, because every single fucking meeting or event requires attendance sheets. Every absence will cost you money.

FUCK THE SCHOOL, FUCK THE DIRECTOR, FUCK HIS PUBLICITY, FUCK EVERYTHING HE STANDS.