Family Drama Stories

This place has helped more than I imagined. The things I have to share are so fucked up and and dark.. but I can't speak them. The words choke me.

I've been assembling a sort of plan with a therapist. As I've forced myself to face my demons I've found a startling truth.

Maybe some of you have read what are.. likely almost unbelievably fucked up things I've experienced, that I've shared. Idk.

You see, my family, we came here from a country destroyed by war. We were no strangers to violence. Depravity. So we came to Canada, years and years before me. At first we began to thrive. It is a welcoming, beautiful country. Hard, determined, friendly people. But the evil of mankind seemed to have followed us, or perhaps the war left its mark on us and we just didn't see.

It began with my mother. She was always an erratic lady, you see. High energy. Fiercely intelligent, strong, capable. A take charge woman. Naturally, she thrived at her first job here- a computer scientist. But it wasn't enough. Something changed. Somehow, no one knows, she got in touch with cartel members, all the way out here. Not really as hard as you may think. movies and shows don't do it justice. The cartel is fuckin organized. If you've not actually seen it, just know this: It's better organized than most companies.

I dont know what she did at first. By that time she was pretty quiet about it. I suspect leaking info, she worked for some big firm you see. Eventually, though, she was hooked on drugs. That was it. Over the years, she became increasingly violent. She beat the entire family, held us all in a grip of fear.

And she became obsessed with me. She began to dabble in the occult, became convinced she controlled curses, demons. Ridiculous.. but imagine yourself, a boy. Just a boy. Your whole world has been spoon fed to you from this lady. She hurts you. She isolates you.

The things she has done, not just to me, but other children- kids from other families, or whatever, who were also involved. There is no hell or pit low enough for her. I have seen men shot, burnt alive, beaten to death, for trivial monetary owing. For drugs. For sport. She became pretty big. One of the largest meth and weapons dealers in the region. But that doesn't come without risks.

For every tens of thousands she made it disappeared into her drug habit. As it got worse, she'd taken me and run off. My father was.. a broken man. The war, yknow. He left me. The other children, my siblings, ran. It was just me, her and my dog. And.. well she didn't let me keep the dog long. let's just say that..

Eventually ofc I ran away. After many attempts. After she literally tore my face open with a claw hammer. I still bear the scars, of course. She even used the claw side... fuck me. I was five, man. How the fuck did she not kill me????

No one came. Years and years went by... I've been.. idek bro. Idk what I am. I'm broken. I know I am. Every day, flashbacks. So vivid I act them out, its embarrassing. I wake up with night terrors, but they're not even just that- it's memories. All memories. I've realized that I'm not even really a person. I've spent so long fighting to hold this inside, fighting to stay alive.. been on my own since 14. No assistance whatsoever. I realize that since I was a kid, I didn't have time to be anyone. I don't.. have hobbies. I don't really have likes or dislikes, yknow, in that regard. All I have is this cringing, crippling pain inside.

I want to change that. But..it's not gonna be easy. In my therapy, they mentioned that I am a victim of thought reform. That we needed to 'deconstruct' the puzzle she's made of me, because I still have the same irrational fears(the supernatural, things like that) that control me. Doesn't matter if I know it's bullshit, it's that fear response. Hardwired.

I also realize she's managed to create an entire person inside me, that isn't me. It's her. I never paid much mind. I've been running my whole life from this. I thought this darker reflection was just my anger, my pain. And it sort of is. But it's worse.

I feel her. She often would ambush me in the dark. I'll skip details. But so.. sometimes I just swear, in a dark hallway.. yknow? Does any of this make sense, prolly not. You can't really get it unless you've lived it, ig, like with anything. I just don't know what to do. I'm just these broken pieces and now I have to just.. figure it out. Yeah, I get it, we're all doing that. But also.. I've literally never met anyone my age, and hardly even older folk, who've seen the shit I have. And, frankly, it's probably because those types of things are buried under the rest of society. When the news is yelling about the other side of the world, I guess it's easy to forget the wars and worse happening in the gutter, right here at home.

The fuck. Anyways. This was about the most put together thing I've written in a while.. Idk what my future holds. Sometimes I.. feel I should.. yk. Leave this place. My way. I'm afraid. I'm afraid to speak these evils to my therapist, I've been writing them down, bit by bit..I'm afraid that when it all comes out, it won't stop. I'm afraid of all that I've suppressed- who fucking knows, what have I been hiding even from me??? God.. but I mean.. fuck, dude. I did everything alone. That has to mean something right?

I had every opportunity to become like her. She even tried for years to make me her enforcer. She said it was her dream, isn't that just fucked? To want, WANT your CHILD to kill families, rivals? What insanity. But I refused. I took more than a few beatings for that, and.. worse. But God saw that shit, I swear. Somehow.. no matter the horror.. no matter how truly fuckin close I've been to hell, to danger, to the worst of humanity, brother I cannot give up. I want to, SO BAD. But I guess I'm made of stern stuff. Man i feel so stupid saying all of this, sometimes, you know, you say something and your brain reminds you how much sense it makes, and i find myself feeling dumb after. Then again, I ah, I'm so fucked up.. I can hardly string a thought this long and organized at all. Why is that?? Why is it now, right now, I'm not a blubbering mess like every other time? Is that what healing feels like? Idfk. I don't trust myself at this time because it's all mixed inside, yknow? It feels easier to generalize. Like, I basically skimmed over my shit. If I get into specifics, like other posts.. oh I'm fucked. Weird.. but maybe not. Okay, rant done

Fuck. FUCK, MAN. Just. Fuck.

I can't.. I just need to get some of this out. Its drowning. Memories man. Feelings. Old and new.

I remember mother and father fighting and the violence of it. He'd had enough, himself no better a place than us. A house of terror. No one was safe. But he's the protector. He's supposed to be the one with power, with Command. He's supposed to be the strong one. All the machismo falls away

She's broken him, at least then. He left. I cower in the corner. This is where it all began, where she gave herself permission to become the evil she did. I should have left. He turns to me, I'm on the balcony. Mom says she will kill me if I leave the house. I believe her. He remarks on her begininning drug habits, her whoring

I cry out for him. He turns and says "Don't worry my son!" he says it in Spanish. Our mother tongue.

"I'll come back for you! I'll come back for you!!!"

He doesn't. Not hard enough. Years go by, all alone alone. She does it all. I see it all. He knew enough, they all knew. the distant ones. No help, but they knew. he promised me he promised me, and now I struggle. now I'm broken and alone. wh didn't you come back for me dad? God damn you. Damn us all. I lost everything because of them. Left to die with her. Somehow lived. But I'm dead anyways, inside. Breathe in and out. Just need to breathe. God help me. I forgive him. I forgive my dad. He was broken too. But responsibility. parents responsibility. no excuse. his responsibility. should have done anything, even kill her. Wouldn't let my son suffer as I did. I'd never. they knew they knew what she was doing and they left me. God why did they leave me

Job interview soon. Came all this way, all this way. Everything.. so much so much. Memories. Two hours to go, I need to keep it together.

I woke up, and it was okay. Then that apparition. That version of Mom that stays with me creeping behind my eyes. I hear my cries and screams but they sound far away and I can't always tell if it's now or then. I remember blood and I remember

things in the dark man that I can't think of right now I need to keep it together. I breathe in and out. It's 2026. I'm a young man now. I'm far away from them all, no one has hurt me no one can. But she's with me, it's like she's around the corner. More screams inside my ears. Hers and mine and others. So many pictures flash before my eyes that I can't unsee. So many whispers in my ear echoes of arguments and abuse. So many smells and so many things my skin crawls to see inside my mind. I tell myself let some out, and lock it away. She's not here. She's not anywhere near here. She can never find me. I disappeared. Even if she could, I could handle it. I'm okay, I have to be okay for just a little while. No more past. Just now. Writing helps. Just keep writing. Missed counseling session yesterday, first one. was shaking, breathless. Have to try again next week, or find a place less busy. Inhale, to 4, exhale, to 4. All there is they say ahahaha. I'm doing it. It's over now I just need to remember that. remember that I'm now, not then.

lately, life has taken an unexpected turn. my wife of seven years decided to leave the house two months ago. she sent me divorce papers through the mail. it's surreal how things can change so quickly; one moment we were planning a weekend getaway and the next i'm looking at legal documents trying to make sense of it all. i can't dwell on negativity though, mainly because I have these two amazing kids who need me more than ever right now.

it's been challenging to say the least but i'm determined to focus on every positive aspect that this new chapter might bring. raising these youngsters on my own has given me a fresh perspective on parenting. every day is a learning experience: from managing school runs to creating impromptu backyard adventures, there’s never a dull moment! 😅

for instance, last weekend, we camped out in our living room watching their favorite movies and making popcorn like it was a five-star cinema. moments like these are precious gems waiting to be appreciated often hidden behind layers of daily chaos; that's what keeps me moving forward with hope and optimism...

If I live into my later years, let me be blessed with the death of memories. Dementia, or something.

I am so alone. No father to teach me how to carry myself.. Mother beyond evil and corrupted. Sought that I would be the same. Whole family is evil, all back stabbers and whores and drug peddlers. They deserve death.. no one came for me. That house fucking haunts me and I can't escape it. I can't talk to anyone I don't know how. I don't know how to be okay or how to vent. it will destroy me. it already is. I can't trust anyone properly. So much sorrow inside me so much rage and anguish. I want to die, but I haven't yet lived. All these stupid years of my cursed existence. Was this the life they wanted for me? to abuse and so horrifically scar me inside and out that I will never find peace?? What God supports this?? is He even there??? I pray. not one answers. God the pain inside is so tangible. I feel it in my mind and in my head and in my heart. So much pain. I want to scream or anything. anything to release me. is death the only way out?? Will I STILL be DAMNED after death?? Why won't it end??

I dont want to remember. I try to forget but I can't. I am alone and I'm scared, I feel like I did all those years ago. Locked in the dark but this time it's me holding the door shut. I wanted family I wanted to be a proper child. I can't have peace. The realization Dawn's on me that not all things that are broken can be fixed. Is that me too?? Surely one can see too much no? My sanity is.. gone, I'm just pain. all the time. I can smile or stay alone but doesn't matter I'm alone anyways. I'm dying this way likely. Can't think straight. Just nerves and memories and no end. no end to it. So much pain.. why why why didn't they just kill me at birth??

sometimes, i sit and think, why do i not remember my childhood? i'm 31 years old now and it's like a blank space before the age of ten. it's not that i've forgotten individual memories here and there; there's just nothing there at all!!! it's almost like those first formative years have vanished into thin air and i'm left wondering about who i was during that time.

it's weird because when people talk about their early memories or childhood stories, i just nod along as if i remember mine too. but deep down, it makes me feel kinda disconnected from others. everyone has these nostalgic tales to tell from their youth, yet i'm here drawing a complete blank on my own experiences. i've read about how some folks suppress memories due to trauma or stress but nothing significant pops out in my mind.

my parents never mentioned anything alarming that happened back then so could it be something else entirely? is it normal for someone to have wiped out the entire memory of a chunk of their life? it's hard not to wonder what kind of influence those missing years might have had on who i am today......am i overthinking this or is it something worth digging into?

maybe there's a scientific explanation for memory loss like mine (i came across articles mentioning things like 'childhood amnesia' but who can say for sure). ultimately though "Growing up means losing some illusions in order to acquire others." so while this whole thing keeps bugging me from time to time; i'll just keep searching for answers hoping one day something triggers those lost memories back.

I've recently come to a big decision in my life...I mean, it's been on my mind for ages, but only now have I decided to take the plunge! At 25, I'm finally going no contact with my family... and it's not like they made this easy or anything. Sounds dramatic, right? But here's the thing: I've chosen to have a vasectomy. It's something I've thought long and hard about, yet my family just doesn't get it at all. They think I'm throwing away opportunities or whatever....like future ones that might not even happen! Why won't they understand that this is what feels right for me?

It's one of those choices where you weigh everything (pros and cons), yet everyone around you seems hell-bent on weighing in with their own criticisms; It's frustrating as heck. The expectations they pile up on your shoulders can be suffocating sometimes... They've always had a different vision for what they expected from me, which just isn't aligning with who I am anymore. It sucks feeling like an outsider at times... Half of me wants to tell them off and half of me wants to explain more...but arguments lead nowhere helpful here. Anyway, despite all the hassle, I remain hopeful! Maybe time will show them my side someday.

How can I retrieve the pieces of my mind and soul I so fearfully scattered as a boy?

There is a name and a face and a reflection- and somewhere within I'm sure it MUST be me- yes? Of course..and yet, not so sure. It may be fear. Maybe it's my mind protecting itself. But that hasn't worked.. and it won't. Only by facing these demons may I potentially gain.. anything. I've run all my life. When I finally escaped that house, that place of perversions so grotesque that to put them to words here would likely offend any notion of humanity. I ran, and I ran so far. Like many times. But it wasn't far enough. So I went farther, in all directions. My Soul one way, my Will another, and the balance of each lost and forgotten. I cloaked myself in anger, in wrath and fury. I armed myself with a hair trigger temper, rigging bridges to burn and ensuring none could know me, none could touch me. For some time it was fuel. I moved forward with angry, distorted purpose. I was powerful, I felt powerful. I felt that though I'd been so hurt, said pain brought me an anger only a life of tortures and perversions could give, and thus, it made me something else. A little human and a little I'm not sure. I lied to myself, I said it was strength. But how can one find himself buried under an entire mountain, and look to his fellow and say "Because the stone rests atop me, clearly; it is held up."

It didn't last. Eventually anger gave way to sorrow. Sorrow gave way to fear. I started to see a young boy in my mind who was frightened and enraged. He wore my face. At first I cursed him. How weak, how pathetic I must be to even consider empathy to my younger self. All the failed escapes, all the.. everything. The abuses. I was weak, and then, one day, I hit back and I fucking ran. Which must mean that now, I am ten feet tall, no? Ugh.

But the hurt of that young kid- of me- this weird, almost separate(as my conscience would have liked me to believe) 'version' of me, as a kid.. he needed help. He cried. He sobbed. And sometimes if I listened, such cries could almost have been said to come from me. But no one was allowed to know that. I run again. And again. Thousands of kilometers. How many cities, provinces? How many states?? Even countries? Never far enough, never fast enough. And now? I've run again. I've stayed.. longer than ever. I am tired. I am thinking in many ways different than those years. Sometimes kinder. Sometimes defeated. But never without anger.. And what a poison that is. A young man, his hair already graying because of the sins of his progenitors. What madness robbed me of who I am. Why can I not accept? I tell myself I have let things go, but have they let ME go? Never. I just want to find myself again. If I ever existed. I wish I could forgive myself for being powerless. God, I wish I wasn't so broken.

so, i'm 24 now and this year was a bit different for me. i always found birthday wishes kinda overwhelming. so every year my mum used to help me reply to all the family members who send their good thoughts (she's super organized with it). but since moving out last year, it's something i have to manage on my own.

being autistic makes social interactions tough sometimes (it's like trying to follow too many conversations at once). when people send birthday messages, especially those long heartfelt ones, i just don't know how to respond without sounding awkward or ungrateful. it's funny though because these are all people i've known my whole life (you'd think that would make it easier). they've been sending nice wishes since forever!

i tried writing back individually this time. i'm keeping it simple and genuine but every message feels like a huge task. some replies seemed off (or maybe that's just in my head)? anyways, i'm hoping they appreciate the effort even if it's not perfect. communication takes practice i guess.

Today I went to the pharmacy to pick up some antihistamines, and the pharmacist asked if I was feeling better (I’d been unwell for months, mainly because of my shitty family). I wanted to scream: "Yes, for fuck's sake, I *am* better—I haven't spoken a word to my shitty parents in over a month, so you bet I'm better." I left the bag in the car and went to the supermarket; when I got back, I found my mother and sister rummaging through it. "What are these?" they asked, pointing to the antihistamines. For fuck's sake—I get that you’re illiterate and barely finished fifth grade, but "AERIUS ANTIHISTAMINE" is written in huge letters. Are you serious? Unfortunately for me, pharmacies don't sell drugs yet.

I don't know... what a shitty life this is.

25 years old and I haven't done a damn thing with my life.

25 years old and I’m not even free to go out alone to the supermarket ten minutes away.

25 years old and I spend my days in bed with headphones on, blasting music loud enough to shatter my eardrums just to drown out my thoughts.

What’s the point of bringing kids into the world and then raising them like shit?

And as if that weren't enough, they bully us for the state we're in and compare us to other people's kids.

Other people's kids don't have shitty parents.

Other people's kids are free.

Other people's kids didn't grow up forbidden from even stepping outside the front door to play with other children.

The kids my mother envies so much didn't have shitty parents.

What is the point of my life?

There is no point.

The only reason I haven't ended it all yet is the music I listen to otherwise, I’d miss out on new releases from the artists I follow.

And even if I did end it, my family wouldn't think about *me* first; they’d worry about what people would think.

I come from a normal family. My brother has a very good job and is a miljonair. And he is not living in reality anymore. He never visits family. Or helps. Even with a sick mother he did not help for a day. Just a visit to the hospital. He talks like this at family gatherings; I am going to buy a Tesla and a Porsche. The Porsche is for a hobby. And the Tesla for work. And a few weeks later he bought the 2 cars. My income a year is what he makes in a month. He was always very normal in the sense he did not care I make less money. But i get the impression he thinks people with less money are worth less. He lives in his own world and I guess being around the same people all the time who can buy anything etc makes you see things differently

this might sound harsh, but I'm really starting to feel like I hate my entire family. It's not just a case of the usual family squabbles or minor annoyances that everyone deals with. This goes deeper than that. I've been feeling this way for quite some time now, and it's eating away at me. Sometimes I feel trapped in my own home because every little thing they do gets under my skin. The constant judgment and unsolicited advice they bombard me with is exhausting.

Let's talk about communication...or the lack thereof. Every conversation seems to escalate into a debate or an argument. It's like we're all speaking different languages, and no one's interested in trying to understand the other side's point of view. They always seem so set in their ways, unwilling to have an open mind about anything outside their narrow bubble of beliefs.

Another issue is the relentless criticism. It feels as if they can't go a day without pointing out something wrong with what I'm doing or how I'm living my life. Whether it's my career choices, my relationships, or even down to trivial things like what I'm wearing: it's never-ending!!!! Honestly who needs enemies when your family makes you feel inadequate?

is it too much to ask for a little emotional support? It's frustrating when they're more invested in keeping up appearances than actually being there for one another on a personal level. Genuine conversations are non-existent because everything has to be sugar-coated or swept under the rug.

I guess there's love underneath all those layers of disagreement and discontent (at least that's what people say) but right now it feels buried too deep for me to find it amidst all this chaos 🙄 in any case maybe i'm overreacting and need some time away from them but i can't help thinking there's no fixing this mess.

I just got back from a month-long family road trip, and it made our relationship 10x worse than it was before we left, which is silly bc it was fine before.

The trip went through like 12 iterations and was planned entirely using Claude AI which should have been the first sign. It was sooo hot, I didn't enjoy any of the activities, and I had to sleep with my sister who had a stomach bug. The worst part was that there was no right way to act. If I complained, I got called annoying or ungrateful and yelled at in public in front of everyone. If I stayed quiet so I wouldn't make things worse, I got told I was moping and I need to speak up and act my age.

Now that we're home things are even more tense. They threatened to punish me by taking things away or not letting me hang out w my friends or go to concerts which is silly bc i'm going to my first concert ever this summer (shocking for my age) and i even paid for the tickets myself (they were not cheap), and they make it seem like i ask for sm when this is the first summer ive asked for anything. Then my mom came out and told me that she has been crying because I've been being so hurtful. Overall I just feel so guilty and angry and betrayed and uncomfortable with my parents I don't even want to look at them. Has anyone else been through something similar or did I just bring this on myself? (╥ᴗ╥) i'd really appreciate any advice thank uuu 💛

being 19 is already confusing enough but when you add in having to come out to your parents, it becomes even more complex. i've been grappling with how to tell my parents that I'm gay. my father is not the most open-minded person around so I predict a significant amount of discomfort and potentially heated discussions. on the other hand, my mother seems more accepting but there’s still apprehension. it's essential for me to confront this identity revelation head-on because i've been hiding who I am for too long...and it's affecting my mental and emotional wellness.

recent studies show that familial acceptance is a critical determinant of happiness and self-esteem among young LGBT individuals. references from psychology today suggest approaching such conversations with empathy and patience while also setting boundaries for oneself. despite all the reading, i can't shake off this relentless anxiety about potential rejection or misunderstanding. balancing cultural norms against personal truth requires Herculean effort at times so here i am, trying to figure it out like so many others before me have.

honestly, i’m struggling to find any motivation for this forced family trip. traveling can be exciting and all, but being 17, i have my own life here. leaving my stuff behind for a whole month feels like a nightmare. who wants to be stuck with family when you could be hanging out with friends? it’s not like i don’t love them, but i'm already over the idea of vacationing together especially when the destination doesn’t even sound appealing. “home sweet home” has never sounded so appealing until now.

it’s frustrating that they won’t listen. they just shrug off my feelings like they don’t matter because “family time” is more important than anything else according to them. sometimes i feel like i'm just this appendage that has to follow wherever they go without considering what I want or need; maybe some would call that ungrateful... but seriously, it’s MY summer too! if anyone else gets how annoying this is, send me some good vibes or advice on surviving because right now i’m totally clueless 😕.